OCDP

[JessieV]

Does anyone on here have ocpd as well as ocd?

[alexandraisobsessed IOCDF Advocate]

JessieV,

I don't know that anyone on here does, but I know of a few advocates on social media who do. Let me know if you would like their handles.

[JessieV in reply to alexandraisobsessed]

Yes please! Apparently I have both.

[alexandraisobsessed IOCDF Advocate in reply to JessieV]

I'm going to DM them to you.

[JessieV in reply to alexandraisobsessed]

Thanks!!

[Trishly1234]

Hi Jessie - yes plus anxiety depression autism trich attachment disorder and possibly a non specific eating disorder- I’m exhausted- how you doing?

[JessieV in reply to Trishly1234]

Hiiii!!! I feel we are kindred spirits. I too am exhausted from anxiety, depression, adhd, dependent personality disorder and of course our beloved friends ocd and ocpd.

[Trishly1234]

Yes !!!! They’re all so contradictory of each other- for months I’ve been in a cycle of waking up depressed with no motivation and tingling legs from anxiety- I sit doing nothing for hours and hate it yet when I try and do something anxiety and dread consume me - when I actually get to the point of doing it ocd kicks in with intrusive thoughts and rituals- I go back to sitting doing nothing giving myself a hard time for not being able to do anything and welcome back tears and depression x

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Trishly1234]

I wanted to "like" your post because I connect so deeply, but "like" seems kind of sick. I do not like this stuff one freaking bit.

[JessieV in reply to Nothing_but_books]

And this is why we have each other. Because we need someone who understands. Like how can I be so obsessively focused and detail oriented on one thing and then unable to finish a sentence the next?? Brain! What are you doing in there??

[JessieV in reply to Trishly1234]

I know! The contradictions can be so frustrating!!

[Trishly1234]

Oh yes finishing a sentence - I totally get that- I actually forget what I’m talking about- that feeling that everyone has occasionally that they’ve forgotten something is me constantly so I hold my breath and close my eyes trying to force myself to remember what it is !!!! I seem to have lost the ability for simple calculations too and maths was my strongest subject and I studied at higher level- and I can no longer multitask!!! I really do feel like my brain has just stopped

[JessieV in reply to Trishly1234]

I know! It’s honestly scary. I feel like I’m questioning and forgetting the most basic things!

[Trishly1234 in reply to JessieV]

Yes yes yes - my first panic attack years ago started in a supermarket because I couldn’t visualise how many tins of beans were in the cupboard therefore I couldn’t make sense of whether I should buy more !! Completely irrational and unimportant- they’re beans - buy them or don’t but so all consuming at the time and now everything is like that - have I brushed my teeth properly- have I showered the right way - am I walking properly- has the clean washing been put away in the right place and then the mind wanders about why it was decided why it’s the right place - what led me to the decision that there is a ‘right’ place - however give me a crisis and I’m absolutely fine !!!

[Trishly1234]

I’ve been trying to get the motivation to go for a shower for a few hrs - I finally move to do it and then my ocd kicks in - are there any clean towels- so then I put off the shower to do some laundry but get side tracked as the kitchen needs to be tidied - start attacking the kitchen and feel so overwhelmed that I’m back on the sofa with a cuppa wondering how many steps it is from the sofa to the kettle!! Back to the shower but I can’t because what am I going to wear as I can’t choose properly because the laundry hasn’t been done!!!

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Trishly1234]

Forgive me, this isn't about you, it's about me. I'm laughing my butt off, and almost crying, because this is me, me, me.

[Trishly1234 in reply to Nothing_but_books]

When I express these things I feel like it could be written for a comedy sketch show and I’m glad we can take some laughter from it as the struggles are scary x

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Trishly1234]

Thank you for getting it! You're on the nose, 👃 👈