Pure OCD

[Luna-blade]

I’ve been suffering with pure ocd since I was a teenager. At the time my parents weren’t aware of what ocd was. My ocd took a toll on me till it peaked in my adulthood. I suffered immensely and got addicted to tranquilizers to get rid of the aggressive debilitating thoughts and pics that attacked me. Finally my brother who got aware of my addiction helped me recover and directed me to a psychologist and psychiatrist where finally in my 30’s I was diagnosed with pure ocd. Meds helped a lot but not fully. You can relapse any time like I did now. I feel the meds are no longer working being exposed to great stress and the stress of taking care of my elderly father since mum passed asaf when I was 22. Aside from Zoloft, depakine and venlax, I’m on lexotanil as I relapsed again after putting in effort on my phd but more effort in taking care of my demanding dad. I fear everything. I can’t get into terms with reality as my education at home was brutal and severe. My mind controls me and hinders my progress in life. I’m suffering a lot and wish I didn’t have this pure ocd. I fear myself I fear the memories the past I dear commitment.

[Albertina_G]

I think so you should see an OCD Therapist and start doing CBT or ERP Therapy. This will help you to get an idea on how you can handle your thoughts

[Luna-blade in reply to Albertina_G]

Thank you Albertina. I have already consulted both a psychologist and psychiatrist but nothing could really help since I was diagnosed at a very late age. Plus, the type of ocd I have is a severe one but thank you for your advice