Harm/suicidal ocd

[Mydogb]

Hi, something is really bothering me. I need a little help please? As most of yous k ow i have been suffering with this sort of ocd. I was told that people with this ocd are at risk of acting on there thoughts/feelings more so the suicidal thought! This has got me ill my anxiety is so soooooo bad a don't even wanna go out my house! I don't want to die are just anyone, my ocd says says I will and want to but I don't has anyone ever suffered this be for or know if this is right?

[MyOCD123]

I don’t know who told you this is but it is absolutely 100% wrong! People with harm OCD are less dangerous than the average person. Your intrusive thoughts are simply a reflection of everything you’re not. OCD wants you to believe that you want to harm yourself, but that couldn’t be further from the truth. OCD is a liar. End of story. Nothing it says, has said, or will said will ever be true. I know that can be hard to accept, I still struggle with believing it myself. I would urge you to challenge your OCD. Maybe say to it “ok OCD, so what if I do want to harm myself”. The more you fight the thoughts and give meaning to them the more OCD will keep them coming. I know how torturous a bad intrusive thought can be but we CAN beat them! I’m keeping you in my prayers. I know that you can do this! Your willingness to share your story with others on this platform just goes to show how brave you are. It will get better, I promise. And I never make a promise that I can’t keep!!

[LuvSun in reply to MyOCD123]

Well said!

[Mydogb in reply to MyOCD123]

Hi MYOCD123 thanks for your reply. It's o hard to accept, it's got me so down a just can't cope ! A family friend told me "If you have thoughts of suicidal or hurting someone your more likely to do so with the ocd" that has made me ill thinking " I'm I a risk to my self and the ones I love?" It's so upsetting I get very anxious when left on own or with my young children! The what ifs? Make me very bad. I suffer from health anxiety as Well so I am scared to die, so a guess it's the ocd making me think I want to die or hurt a loved one.xx

[disneyandme in reply to Mydogb]

Hi! To put it plainly, the person who told you this clearly doesn't understand OCD. As MyOCD123 said, people with harm OCD/suicidal OCD are absolutely not more likely to do these things. In fact, it's quite the opposite. My advice would be to not take the opinions of others so literally who do not have/understand OCD, leave these conversations for your therapist to avoid complicating your situation even more. Good luck, you WILL recover and be yourself again

[Mydogb in reply to disneyandme]

My family are very upset that someone could even say that. It's really hurt me so bad to the point a don't wanna be round anyone because of fear. Thank u for your support it means a lot xx

[LyndsyLoo in reply to Mydogb]

Wow! What a story. I was triggered by this same theme and I have been living in Hell ever since. How are you doing now? I would love to chat!

[HELLNOCD]

Completely agree with MyOCD123! Your thoughts are egodystonic and you are doing everything in you power to make sure they don’t happen... you’re not alone dear friend!

[Hidden]

Hi Mydogb - The torment of your OCD has really been severe lately. There are so many medicines used now for OCD. The trick is to find one that works with you. Not one medicine works for all of us. Even though it takes time to find a working medicine, I think medication would would be the quickest way to help you on a permanent basis, especially with the degree of anxiety you are having, and I've noticed you keep asking the same questions here (which is fine to do) because you haven't been getting relief. So I'm very concerned about you. That is miserable to think you can't go outside, among all your other fears. I've never done ERP, so I can't speak to that. You are definitely in my prayers. I'm wanting you to find what helps you specifically.

[Mydogb in reply to Hidden]

Hi Sunn-E my ocd was getting so much better then bang a went back down hill. I have just been for a family tea and I was ok no thoughts at all! Until I got home then the thoughts come back, a think it's because it seen me having a good time. I didn't want to go at first but then I faced my fears and went! It's now telling me not to tell people about my thoughts! Am like yea right, am very open about what is going on in my head if people ask I tell them what's up! Ano it's just ocd but it's so hard but I k ow in time I will get there and beat this! Xx

[Hidden in reply to Mydogb]

Yes, don't give up.

[Gretajetta]

I am afraid to die too. I hate thinking about it. I’m afraid of laying underground and just being there knowing what’s going on. I hate to think of death. If we all only new what really happens it would be less stressful. I am not sure what I believe. I grew up going to church and was married in the same church. I stopped going after getting married. I am not sure what I believe. Sometimes I think it’s all made up so people are afraid. I recently started going back to the same church. I still don’t know what to think or believe but I am hoping I can find answers and comfort going.