Hello, I have harm OCD and the moment that I convinced myself that I have to talk about it to my therapist I got so anxious that xanax could not calm me down, its been around 7 days and its a living nightmare ...... and in 2 days I have to tell him.
Even now , that I know that other people have harm ocd(I saw it on youtube) I could not calm down, I could not eat , I am all day in my bed and I dont want to get out of it
I am sorry to hear that you are going through such a rough time.
Try to let the thoughts be there.
Accept the thoughts as they come.
Sit wit the anxiety, it will slowly get lesser.
It looks like you went through a panic attack due to severe OCD.
I have been through times when my OCD seems overwhelming.
But try to take care of yourself by eating and sleeping properly.
Sometimes OCD worsens if your physical health is poor.
Hoping everything improves for you.
I feel better today, I believe the same that it was kind of panic attack.I had another 3 in my whole life. But I had suicidal thoughts too. Did you have same experiences?
Thank you for answering again man , it means a lot talking to other guys with same symptoms.
I had similar experiences of panic attacks with suicidal thoughts.
It usually happens when my OCD is out of control.
I have depression with OCD.
Just for your information, I am a female, not a male.
sorry I did not know ...
Yes it seems that all of us who have ocd , we have similar symptoms and thoughts.(my ocd was way out of control 2 days ago)
Today I feel way better than yesterday and I am ready to talk with my therapist!
Thank you for sharing your feelings it helps me a lot
I was certain my therapist would send me to a psych ward or call the police when I shared my harm OCD thoughts!! After more than a year in therapy....not happening! I trust this therapist with any thought now. You can do this!
Hope you're doing better - everything you mentioned in your initial post and your comments sounds like classic harm OCD. Like others mentioned, try to lean in to the anxiety and be kind to yourself. If you can slowly try to get back into a normal routine, even to get out of the house for a little bit or to just go outside, this can help to tell your brain that the thoughts aren't as important as your primal brain is telling you.
Hey there! My current theme is similar. I was triggered by a video I watched where someone ended their life and it send me into a huge panic attack. I’ve never had any intrusive thoughts like that before and just the thought of knowing that people could literally end their lives at any given moment, scares me so badly! How did you manage it?
Sorry for being so late to answer your question. I said it to my therapist and thats it .
He showed me experiences of other patients who wanted to kill someone else which is worse than the thought of suicide.
I understood that it is normal to have such thoughts.
The problem begins when you interact with the intrusive thoughts.
Your message brought back to my memory those 10-12 days....... it was a living hell but right now , I am smiling knowing that I have win the battle with OCD .
You can do it . It is hard work , I know , but you can do it.
Is this really OCD?
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