Unwanted Suicidal thoughts / urges

[Mommyyof02]

been about 3 days that i get these thoughts they are not constant but ill get theme like once i am not suicidal i do feel terrible but i wldNever so that i dont even want to think about it can anyone relate? Today i decited i wil no longer fight my feeling thoughts and emotions ive been having sensations and rush of fear all over my body through out the day its been hard not to attack and stop it but im feeling all the feelings and emotions while going tru my day like working driving and attending my family is that okay to do? Will i feel better if i resist and feel all sensations and feelings even if they make me feel terrible?

[runaway12]

Hi Mommyof02,

I used to get suicidal thoughts as well, all i can say it just happens when you are going through a lot! But some days go smooth and some days don't.

Try to focus on better things you got like family and kids and the happiness you get from them.

After some time you will learn to fight against your thoughts

I get depressed too however try keeping myself happy from things i like to do, that is definitely going to help you out!

Cheers

[Fearnomore]

They say that you’re supposed to let the intrusive thoughts come until you begin not to care about them anymore, or until you’ve faced them and are not afraid of them, ERP therapy. It’s really hard, and I understand how difficult it is. Please seek help from a trained therapist to help you with this process. You shouldn’t be going through this alone. You should also seek the support of a trusted loved one. Keep thinking about your children and your family! With their love and your love for them, medical treatment, and God’s love you will get better.

[ChristianWolff]

Hello Mommyyof02,

There have been several times in my life when I seriously considered suicide as a viable option. I contemplated all the ways I could accomplish the act going into great detail of each step and the accompanying outcome. Each time was followed by thoughts of the poor soul who would find me or depending upon my chosen method was tragically involved in my death. Thinking about the after-effects on my children, my mother, my siblings would bring me to tears. Eventually I would drag myself out of the funk that brought out the suicidal thoughts scolding myself and feeling a terrible person for thinking of such a thing. A series of extremely personal and traumatic events led me to therapy where I first learned that I was OCD and a high-functioning autistic (Asperger's). I came to appreciate being alive and able to experience the simple joys of walking in the sunshine listening to birds singing and children playing. Enjoying the relationship with my now adult children that I would not see if I had carried through with suicide. I know and understand how you feel Mom and would like to be of assistance if you wish.