Mood swings have been terrible today. Woke up feeling not too bad - had thought we would all go out today (2 kids, partner and me) but as the day went on was getting knots in my stomach and feeling a bit jittery and restless. Ended up about half 5 before we got out, was going to drop off eggs and cards to my nephew and mother in law, but ended up in tears in the car, having the usual arguments with my partner about money and just feeling like I cant take any more of it. Dont know where the feelings all came from but feel awful now because you just cant explain it to kids - they shouldn't see me like this but I could not control my feelings. They are still out - I got dropped off back home - partner is not in the least bit understanding (his parting line was - 'as usual your mum spoils everything ' and he says If I'm that unhappy I should just leave - he's totally missing the point - and the point is that half the time there isn't a point when you are depressed - I think its just sheer frustration that leads me to this state. Does anyone else feel like this and what have you found to be the best way to cope when you feel like you are losing control as its just embarrasing and seems to create a whole load more problems when people see you crying.