Advice

Hi! I am 38 and have 4 children. Life has been a struggle and I have handled it in the wrong ways. I went through a phase of being so depressed that I was drinking a lot. I did that for about 6 years until I finally snapped out of it and got help with my depression. It’s been 2 years since I’ve pulled myself together and I don’t deem myself as an alcoholic because I don’t need it but i still like to enjoy it on occasion. I was working on the yard over the weekend and decided I wanted to have a drink on a hot day. When I drink I do tend to drink a few. I had 6 and yes I ended up drunk. My husband came home and has been mad at me ever since. I feel like I’ve hid myself from who I was and doing the things I enjoy just to please him and be the person he wants me to be so I spiraled. Am I wrong to still be drinking from time to time, mind you the last time I had one was over a month ago. Am I hurting him and my family? I can’t stand up to him because he always has something to say and make me feel like everything is my fault and guilty. I don’t have friends because of him because he judges everyone. I just don’t know what to do.

[CatSandy7]

Hi - you don't mention the impact on your children. You seem to look outwards instead of inwards. Very difficult to advise because I may sound I am judging. Seek professional help - someone who can get to the root of 'your' problem and then hopefully it's a step to a solution and happiness for your future and the futures of your children and your husband. Good luck and take care.