Suicidal Ideation at a young age.

[EnigmaticMindOfLirio]

My mind is a mess right now. Haven't been on here in a long time. Still going along with therapy. New therapist. Only medication at the moment is Hydroxyzine. Currently waiting for genetic testing for medications, as well as, CT scan of my brain for possible pituitary adenoma. Diagnosis: PTSD, OCD, Anxiety, Severe Depression or MDD, Aspergers.

I want to know why I have felt like I wanted to die since a very young age. I feel like it started when I was 10 - The suicidal ideation. I feel like an alien. The only friend I have that understands moved out of state. She works a lot and I don't want to burden her or scare her. Why am I like this. I feel as though I am impossible to love. I try my hardest to make everyone happy, while draining myself. I don't know what to do anymore.

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Where you heard from or learnt from I don’t know but not something that people think about. You need to be aware of successes of your life and you’ve done very well even with these emotions. Meditate and try to think happy thoughts instead But therapist and doctors best to advise you

[Gambit62]

I don't think you are alone, if that helps.This post is about where my journey took me in terms of understanding what was happening to me.

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