Death in the family and suicidal thoughts

[Joeb17]

Hi I suffer from mental health issues including a voice in side my telling me to do things.I also suffer fro agrophobia and tinnitus 24/7 in both ears.I promised people that I would not do any thing stupid because of my mum who is 90 this year .all my meds are locked away just in case.but my mothe passed away quite peacefully on Boxing Day and because of this covid I have no one to give my a hug.the voice inside my head is now saying go on do it your mums dead now.I have been I have been in contact with the mental health team but they just spoke to me.my mum was the reason for me not taking an over dose but now she’s dead .I envy my sister and family they can hug each over the same with mu brother but I have no one an it just makes me want to end it but the trouble is I’m scared to do it and have not got the guts to do it.

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Pleased you have not got the guts to take your Life, can you imagine how your family members would feel if you took your life

Also why do you feel you need a hug especially if you have family that is always Hugging, Do you need to ask. Go get those hugs, they will not complain especially if you explain your need.

Enjoy those hugs ????

BOB

[FearIsALiar]

Don’t make a permanent decision to something like this. Even if your mom is not here. Your mom wouldn’t want you to do this. Please don’t..

[FearIsALiar]

We all care here. You have our love and support. Please reach out to people.

[ZeN01]

Hiall the issues you have raised here and your troubles, I am exactly the same I also have spinal problems I used to fall back on my training cycling weights etc kept the voice at bay then I was told not to train and that my surgery had not worked so I had to stop all the training my lifeguard is invalid etc, The Surgeon knew how much I suffered with my mental Health they helped me enormously when I had my Op, I asked if there was anything that I could do to exercise ... Oh yes swimming is good ....and oh yes where do I do that then. Then came the Lockdown so I haven't seen my C.P.N since April (get Phone Calls) but I am asked just to try and carry on .... Now this is what I do about the voice in my Head ... I have a music studio so make music, concentration wont let the voice in (most of the time) and I have my Headphone's also which helps I know what you say about Hugs I cannot remember the last time someone Hugged me and being a bloke I suppose I never ask (that's when I see my family) the only advice I can give you is to take each day as it comes ... Can I help you No ...I wish I could because then I would help myself also I Lost my Mum in 2001 but it still hurts then my Dad in 2007 I am glad that you don't have the Guts to "Do It" use that as your inner support there are so many things I could say but its not about me, get strength from your Mum think what she would say and how she would help you think of the times you have hugged your Mum I miss my Mum like I said and wish That I had told her how much I Loved her ... but in my soul I do know that she knows that like the guy before said it hurts like hell I suppose that I have whinged a bit but makes me feel better and that I am not the only one Stay Safe Stay Strong .... One Love ZeN

[Torri_____]

Give yourself a hug thinking of your mum and knowing what she would say. I have mental health issues for life and work hard to stay safe and am living far from my humans at the time and I am in contact through the internet and put a lot into that to feel connected to them from afar. It hasn’t been easy but I use books tv music baths and hug myself and say I am enough and loved and the things I’m trying to replace the bad thoughts with. I’m in your corner saying I care and send good long hugs and best wishes your way. May you lean on that strength that you’ve got in there that’s invisible to anyone that doesn’t have this inside. It makes you such a brave strong person to speak out and to fight this as you do. 💪🏼

[Sankissjuice]

I learnt from Art of Living happiness program to hug myself, and with practice, I do it and give all the love I feel to my body when I hug myself. It does work. Sometimes I reach out to my mum and hug her. When I had my dog I hugged him. When I am with kids (neighbour's or my cousin's), I hugged them. See if you can find ways to hug any living being. Even trees! Start by hugging yourself. Then visualise us giving you hugs? I also use a hugging pillow. Not the same as human touch but works since I am single. I know how important touch is to deal with stress... see if you can go to your sister and brother and hug them? I am currently living in a culture where adults don't hug at all. So I lean on animals and children for my hugging needs.

[RaqHazeleyes]

So sorry for your loss. She would want you to keep on keeping on. Live beautifully. Much love and peace/healing sent your way