Hello everyone ❤️

[Positive2022]

Hi All

Just reaching out to everyone at this incredibly difficult time. Hoping to make some friends and offer support to everyone.

A little about me.... I was diagnosed with primary infertility a few years ago. My issue was low progesterone and v high miscarriage risk. I had a lot of difficulty coming to terms with my diagnosis and embarking on the whole 'fertility journey'. Fast forward to 2018, I had a very stressful pregnancy with multiple bleeds and admission for reduced movement. Traumatic birth, resulting in a large postpartum haemorrhage and poorly healed episiotomy scar. Very unwell for months. Developed PTSD and PND.

I am in need of surgery to correct the scar that has so badly healed. My surgery was cancelled twice. Once after I had been admitted, was practically being wheeled down to theatre and then told very abruptly to go home and await another date. The next date cancelled due to coronavirus. Therapy came to an abrupt halt.

I totally understand why and obviously I am a very low priority but psychologically I have found this very tough. Truth is I can't have any more children until the surgery is done and mentally I feel I can't move forwards until I have my surgery. This has naturally spiralled me downhill. Lost all contact with my GP as clearly they have other more urgent cases.

I was looking for a place where I could offload and hopefully offer some support to others. I'm finding it hard at the moment.

If you have got this far, thank you for reading take care and stay safe ❤️❤️❤️💕💕💕

[Eian59]

Hi Poppy

Sorry to hear about your problems, with your operations being cancelled and knowing it's the only thing they can do. But this is a good site to talk about anything that is bothering you or you want advice on something of even just a chat about anything that you want.

It's also a good place to vent if you need to , I think we all do it at times.

Anyway welcome and I hope you get some help from the site.

Regards

Eian

[Positive2022 in reply to Eian59]

Hi Eian, thank you for your support and taking the time to respond ❤️

[Hidden]

Hello Poppy

As you have gathered the Virus is really causing problems for various types of Surgery and that of course is not resting well with you. You need treatment and that looks like it is going to take time as we wait for the virus to clear.. In a way one good thing is not been called in at this time is all for the best, the infection rate in hospital can be quite high and in a way things have been put on hold, I cannot see people want to take risks at this time, be patient and if you are worried you can always call the surgery and ask for a telephone consultation.

In my case I need an injection every twelve weeks, if I do not get the injection My condition will revert, however we are where we are and I am hoping to be able to do the injection myself, So you are not alone when needs cannot be met.

Always feel free to offload here it is important you can get support and understanding at this time. If you need medications set up your script on the web, it may be it will be delivered or posted to stop you needing to attend the Surgery. In fact many GPs may be taking appointment on phone at home ??

All the best

BOB

[Worrywort55]

Hi Poppy149,

I'm so sorry you've had such a traumatic time. I presume for now the episiotomy scar is settled & not infected. You could get advice over the phone from a duty midwife. They would give you some support fir physical & psychological guidance. There is a private service called Dr Morton medical service which you can subscribe to for unlimited advice. Dr Morton herself is a gynaecologist so would give you some good clear guidance & report this to your GP. Once you are through all this you will be ready to consider another pregnancy, but for now healing & patience is tantamount.

You will get through this with gentle care. Self compassion.org is very good & free.

Hopefully you have a supportive family. But keep talking & be kind to yourself Xx

[Positive2022]

Thank you for taking the time to respond and for your kind words. Unfortunately, I have lost alot of my support due to the current situation. I want to just dust myself off, forget and move forwards but I really am finding it so so hard, psychologically. I was let down massively with my postnatal care, for several reasons and changed GP surgeries. My current GP is amazing and really has gone above and beyond. Just as I was starting to get somewhere and could see light at the end of the tunnel, everything comes to an abrupt halt. Obviously unprecedented and I completely understand that I am one of many many people of a very low priority but I have serious concerns about my mental wellbeing. I guess i'm pretty good at hiding how I feel, I can get up and dressed put a smile on and look pretty normal to the outside world but in reality I know i'm going downhill and I don't think my loved ones know how to help me. But finding this forum has been such a help, and being able to offload has been amazing so thank you ❤️

[Dagenhamboy]

Hi pop

It is really sad but hold on honey. You will see better days soon. I can see the light coming your way. You made it so far, the remaining distance is not that far. You are more than welcome to email me on [e-mail]

God bless you.

[Positive2022 in reply to Dagenhamboy]

Thank you lovely, hope you are okay too ❤️

[Dagenhamboy in reply to Positive2022]

Am good Pops. Good, now i can see tbe spirit in you... now keep that going.. if you slow then the slow will eat you. You are doing great now... 👏👏👏