I am not normal

[Shilpa08]

Guys I am troubling u a lot but I think by childhood I am like this I don’t know actually...I always feel sad.. I am jealous.. I compare and I am always negative and u think negative if people if my loved ones...I am so so bad that I don’t improve I have no option other than to die as I don’t love myself also...I want something else in my life but I don’t know what and how and I am not satisfied ever...I know all my mistakes but I am not able to cope up with them or improve them...I am very stubborn I just don’t want to do anything what to do I am fucked up

[Hidden]

Stop beating yourself up as said before it takes two to Tango, stop putting yourself down.

It is a well known way to pull down someone, as described by you and this way of pulling someone down is very common and such an evil way to control someone.

BOB

[Shilpa08 in reply to Hidden]

I didn’t understand what you are saying ...do u mean I am evil or I am wrong..tell me what to do

[Hidden in reply to Shilpa08]

You are no where near evil in fact I feel for you been stuck in the situation you find yourself in, I feel you are being pushed to conform by those around you and here in the UK that would not be allowed.

It is hard for us in the UK to suggest the best way to approach these problems you have Marriage in the UK is a Partnership, it would seem to me the system in India needs to be looked into, where Women have the same rites as their husband. It seems to me your system is well out of date, I know what to suggest in the UK although for India that is a different matter.

You need to talk to your Husband, I feel very sorry for you and do not know what to suggest. Your husband needs to be more understanding of your needs and expectations as in the UK.

BOB

[Hidden]

I know it is difficult to stop these bad thoughts from being in your head, just know that you are more than your bad feelings.

[mel39]

I’m sorry you feel this way. I suggest you call Samaritans and talk to them. Firstly you will feel relieved and secondly they will offer you any support available to help you.