I am suffering a lot

[Shilpa08]

Hello people I know I am troubling a lot but every morning I get up and I just want to die I have so much negative thoughts that I get anxiety and I don’t eat all day I m just not happy and I don’t know how will I get happy I hate everyone around me and it’s in my nature that I see negative in everyone I have imagined a different life for me but I got totally opposite and I am not able to cope up with it I don’t do any work and I don’t feel like also I am stuck up what should I do my marriage is a hell everyone is nice but I don’t like them and I can’t do anything for anyone I am a monster I think I shouldn’t live as I am bad but I am scared also I don’t know what to talk to people as I always talk negative I have no frnds I am totally a dead person just wanted to say that’s why I am writing

[Shilpa08]

Should I counselt a doctor

[CanuckAnon in reply to Shilpa08]

Yes please the sooner the better...

[CanuckAnon]

Please go see a doctor... they can help. Please stay strong... you can do this.... have you spoken to your mom about this?

[Shilpa08 in reply to CanuckAnon]

Yes I have my parents wants my treatment

[Tikirob]

Why do you hate everyone around you? Why do you hate yourself? And what about life makes you so upset?

[Shilpa08 in reply to Tikirob]

My past, my expectations and I compare my life with others as I had fantasy world which I didn’t get and I blame myself for everything I know all my mistakes but I am not able to correct it

[Tikirob in reply to Shilpa08]

I understand - it’s really great you are acknowledging these things, give yourself some credit. Not everyone is honest with themselves like that. If you think you were in a fantasy before your are being very real right now. And you can continue in that direction and work all those things out.

[Shilpa08 in reply to Tikirob]

I am not that smart or talented that I can change things around me

[Tikirob in reply to Shilpa08]

None of can change the things around us but we can change how we feel about them.

[Shilpa08]

People say that a girl can change the house after marriage and everyone but I am not that type I can’t do anything for anyone I am worthless I should die

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The night before rising, consider planning something you will enjoy for the next day, at the end of the jobs around the house consider a treat to look forward to. Sometimes that does work.

We will be having teabreak soon and at the weekend we purchase some very sweet biscuits to have each afternoon when we come back with Pax.

Above seems to make the weekend special

Remember when it comes to those around you. It is important you try and walk in others shoes before you correct their so called faults.

Marriage seems to loose some magic over time, everything becomes routine it is up to the both of you to make life interesting. You could talk to your Doctor and explain however it all sounds you are a little jaded in your life so some changes and expectations need to be considered. What made you like your Husband and Him you, you may find an answer there in some ways

BOB