Update

[Np77]

Update from my 1st post on here about 3 weeks ago.

I've now got somewhere to stay but it's not home,the landlord who I've been sharing with went home to be with his family over Xmas and won't be back till Jan 6th.

I still feel incredibly lonely and isolated and being in a strange house which is quite large makes it all the more difficult.

I'm lucky to get 3-4 hours sleep a night.

I tried anti depressants but they make me to hyper and about 3 weeks ago I collapsed and had to be taken to hospital.

I've been used to a family environment for Xmas for the last 10 years and this year will be spending it on my own due to my partner having an affair and chucking me out,now the new bloke is already living there and sleeping in our bed,it makes me feel physically sick,she cheats on me and I have to pay for it and suffer.

You hear people say oh just go out and make friends,but when u suffer depression and anxiety and difficulty interacting with people it's easier said than done.

Still feel absolutely useless and worthless

[Beautifulrainbow]

Hello Np77 I'm so sorry you are going through all this stuff, it must really hurt, and it's even more upsetting for you because your not spending it with your family. I'm thankful you have a roof over your head and your not out on the streets. I understand you when people say go out meet new friends, I to suffer from Anxiety, depression and social aniexty and I can't go out alone. It's not that easy if you suffer like that. Is there other family members who could help you. I'm sure if you could reach out to someone you won't feel so alone. Speak to the samaritans their there to listen and it might make you feel less anxious. Good luck and I hope things get better for you. X

[Np77 in reply to Beautifulrainbow]

Hi Mazda2

Thanks for the reply

There's no one I can talk to.

Being a social outcast has made me more and more isolated.

[Beautifulrainbow in reply to Np77]

You could ring the Samaritans they are there to listen to you. Are you seeing anybody like a Doctor, social worker, counsellor, because it will be nice if you could converse with someone.

[Np77 in reply to Beautifulrainbow]

I've been to my GP,they've set me up with a therapist but that's not for over a week, don't know how I'm going to survive till then.

An hour is a long time let alone a week,don't know what I'm going to do till then,can't concentrate on anything,reading,TV,internet nothing

[Beautifulrainbow in reply to Np77]

I really do know where your coming from, and I understand how you feel. I have a very supportive family, but sometimes I feel isolated. How about your family Np77 is there not anybody there for u. Try to do some meditation if you can, that might help you to relax a little. Hope when you do get your appointment you tell them everything that's been going on with you, and I wish you luck.

[Np77 in reply to Beautifulrainbow]

Thank you Mazda2

[Beautifulrainbow in reply to Np77]

Your very welcome. But please let me know how your appointment goes, and feel free to message me any time if you need to talk.

[Np77 in reply to Beautifulrainbow]

I will

Really appreciate this

Thank you