IM THE CRAZY ONE?

[Balloon5]

I’m always an emotional wreck.

I’m always the one getting too worked up.

Somehow people find things out about me at work and use it against me. I got into a huge argument at work and it somehow got turned on me when I was simply trying to confront the situation. I got emotional and I couldn’t control myself at work and everyone saw me now I’m all these things and now I wanna quit my job and GO AWAY!!! I want all this to go AWAY!! My anxiety is up the roof I feel like soo much is going on at work, at home.. I’m a problem everywhere!!

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello Baloon5, I am so sorry you are having a difficult time all-round at present.

Please don't think you are a problem because you are not one on here, we don't think you are. It's good to vent how you are feeling sometimes. Perhaps writing down how you feel, what is wrong and are there any ways to start fixing things however small the steps maybe.

How can you help yourself feel better? Do you have a counsellor you can talk too, or any skills that you have learned - perhaps CBT or Mindfulness.

All these things can help you, and we want to help you feel better about yourself.

It is World Mental Health Day today (10th October) and one of the themes for today is

'Talk To Others', perhaps now is the time to talk with your trusted family member or friend or your GP/Health Professional.

Best wishes and keep posting on here,

MAS Nurse & Moderator.

[sittingwithfeetup]

"Somehow people find things out about me at work and use it against me."

It sounds like my old work place!

They did the same thing to me there!

Not only that but this jerk who was making a spectacle of me had things twisted to make me sound like a jerk and a liar and her friends took her at her word and had a self-righteous little temper fit.

The details they're twisting happened about thirty years ago but they very conveniently forget to mention this. They heard rumors second hand about things that happened when they were not even there, but they very conveniently forget to mention this to their friends. Their friends always just take them at their word.

I can't count how many times I wanted to start screaming when they lie and I kept it inside.

I finally learned how to announce, "She isn't telling you this, but I haven't been talking to her and I haven't been telling her stuff! This never occurs to some people when someone starts the game of "she said..." or when their friend is twisting the truth and they have their ignorant little temper fit and start calling me "ignorant" because they can't stand this in themselves.

After one episode of someone screaming and twisting the truth, I waited for about two and a half hours when it was almost the end of the shift and then told the boss, "I had no way of knowing that..." and added in, "I do not want to work with people who lie and who are always up to their tricks....... I can't read their minds and I can't make equipment appear out of thin air. "

I've run into so many people who think they're entitled to know whatever they want to about you and they broadcast your business anytime they feel like it. I have been demonized so many times when someone was twisting the truth. I don't know why people who are years out of high school are still acting like they're twelve.

One day when a co-worker lied at me, I blew up and by this time, I owed it to myself. Then I was accused of "screaming like an adolescent" by another co-worker in earshot who was a regular jerk with some superficial charm.

It seems that some others have the right to explode and I do not???

I finally got out of this place where they twisted the truth and started fights and found a better work place that paid less but where they lied less and started fights a lot less.

I also met up with various old co-workers from that old work place who indicated that they had a problem with their dishonesty.

It was kind of neat when one of my co-workers they were slandering waited until we were in a staff meeting and gave them a piece of her mind right in front of them and no one had any way to give her any back talk.

Did you talk about this to your supervisor, or do you feel comfortable telling them about their treatment of you?

[Balloon5 in reply to sittingwithfeetup]

I don’t feel comfortable in bringing it to anyone’s attention due to in construction “its a mans world” & because I’m a woman I’m all these names and ignorance! I do quality assurance so when the workers try to argue with me about whats wrong or right, I’m always the one who is wrong. They pay me pretty well for me only being 20 and because I have financial obligations I feel like I have no where that will pay me that high so quickly..