Hi all hope you are doing well. I try to support others in the community by assuring them they are strong enough to deal with their issues. I have been lucky enough in my life to have had solid people do that for me. But my mom always told me some people are palms and others are oaks and it’s actually the strong tree that breaks with gusts during a storm while the limber tree bends with the wind.
Until today I have been fairing as good as a person with an anxiety disorder could be under the threat of this pandemic. I live in NYC and the environment reflects all the dismal things you hear on the news. Before you know it you are either hearing stories about people you know or knew who are effected and so not to trigger anyone I will not get into any other details. Keeping myself somewhat sane has been tough and today I got scared of being sick and then a another haunting thought cane to me...What if my country breaks...what if I lose my country?
After 9/11 it was a few days before most people returned to work that could. I did the same . You knew waking the streets that country had changed but America was still there. However for the first time in my life with this pandemic I am scared of losing my country.
As strong as it has been in its history I am worried that the whole structure can break from this pandemic.