Not Coping As Well As People Think

[batphink]

Trigger warning Not much has changed in the last almost year.I still get out rarely,my counsellor moved to Kitchener and no new one has been assigned to me. Well there was supposed to be a new one and she called me once made an Appt then backed out she sounds like an amateur.I told my Doc and she said to be patient,it's been 9 months!! I cancelled my cell phone plan 6 months ago no-one calls except for one old married friend emails me,otherwise everyone I know has left even though I try keep in touch and did favors for many,listening to their concerns etc.

Every day is the same,I go out for a tea or coffee on my own ,no-one to sit with,my own family don't seem to realize I often want to die in my sleep.So now I'm not coping nearly as well as other think but thanks for the kind words .

[Hidden]

The same thoughts occur to me, but I have my autistic son non verbal to look after and that get me through the day. It is hard to find something amusing, and I have enrolled on Homeopathy course and Indian Head massage course hoping the medical line will be able to help me but I know I am responsible for myself and not my family or therapist (who I have not told anything to - and am back with GP)

I look at motivational or support groups for autism. Can't think of the future but present keeps me going.

[batphink in reply to Hidden]

Hi Thanks for your reply and encouragement.I do have an interest actually I compose music have for years though no famous lol.If it wasn't for that and my niece's little baby I would have ended it years ago. Sadly my other health problems are interfering with my musical output really slowing me down which upsets me.

Hope you and your Son are coping Blessings

[Aardbark]

I have had a rough and depressing life myself. In times of loneliness, I would go too support groups and volunteer at homeless shelters or soup kitchens. Currently I help out at a Salvation Army thrift store. Helping others helps myself. I have made some friends in the process. I hope something helps.

[batphink in reply to Aardbark]

Hi thanks for your reply.I actually want to help others but lately my health is knocking me off my feet literally,I only manage to get out for an hour or two maybe once a week at this point in time.Once I can make it two days then I will try volunteer I realize there are people much worse off. I just need to get a little more steady on my feet (I suffer from Vertigo among about 10 other problems). Take care of yourself and Bless you for helping those in need