I was dating a girl named Laura for over a year and a half, when she told me I wasn't enough for her anymore.
In a fit to show her that I would do anything, be anything to keep the love of ym life by my side I proposed, and she said yes, and I know we are still terribly young, but it was more of a promise ring, well, it was a promise ring, but anyway...
She told me she wasn't ready, that I am ignorant and don't care about her needs, yet I, suffering multiple illnesses to the point of taking my own life on several occasions, read her to sleep every night. She says "Yes but I am the one who calls you even when you hang up on me asking to be alone!" And I thanked her for caring, for trying, but at the same time, there is only so much I can see clearly with this mess of chemicals in my mind.
We have been on and off lately and she's sick of me, sick of this, but she doesn't understand that my illness will take in excess of 10 years to overcome. I've been stuck like this for 7 YEARS! I DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS! I can't overcome this on my own. I'm 17! I have to take 6 pills a day just to be able to think, walk, talk and come home again, and now I have to take more because I am continuously sick.
My mum came in last night and said to me "You're better than this." and I know I should be, I should be strong, but I'm not, I'm weak. I can't do this anymore.
I fear that without help, I will take my own life.