Feel like giving up

[Joy28]

I've admitted in a mental clinic for 2 weeks and got discharged yesterday but I'm still not okay. I'm still depressed, I'm still suicidal, I'm still so sad I feel like screaming. How do I stop feeling this way, how do I get out of this dark place, how do I feel happy again?? I'm so tired of feeling this way, I'm broken. I don't know where to go for help, I'm tired 😭😭😭

[Dolphin14]

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad. If you are still suicidal why did they discharge you?

[Joy28 in reply to Dolphin14]

They did not want me to use up medical aid funds

[mydhen]

Dear Joy28. Depression is a complicated thing. Even though I suffer from it, I am aware that there are many things I don't know about it. Maybe you feel worthless, as many depressed people feel. In that case, even though I don't know you, I can assure you you are not. I can assure you that you are valued by more people than you think.

You can put your depression to use - share it with others. By sharing your experiences with others, you will at least make them feel like they are not alone. Or you might help them cope.

Another suggestion (I know it may seem silly) - don't think about the unfortunately many negative things that are around you. There are plenty of good people and good things. Think abut them.

Also, review what medication you are taking - not just for depression, but unrelated medications. Some can contribute to suicidal thoughts.

Sorry if my suggestions seem silly.

I wish you luck!

Henry Mydlarz

[Joy28 in reply to mydhen]

No your suggestions are not silly. have bipolar and the mood swings are just horrible. I'm just so broken

[Zelda123 in reply to Joy28]

I have bipolar and for me what your symptoms are.. are normal for me I’ve been that poorly for that long. You can stay alive by talking, being creative, not isolating yourself completely, trying to get a good night sleep .. well I’ve had hallucinations recently and not sleeping as I’ve had a load of crap to deal with but .. when it’s around 3-4am and your thoughts are buzzing just lay there and listen to meditation music or be silent and you eventually nod off ...

Medication can alleviate symptoms .. I’m still trying to find the right one.. but I k I’ve medication doesn’t get rid of all symptoms you’ve got to dig deep and figure out what works for you to keep your safe.. thats what I do.. sometimes I just sit in silence to give my senses a rest from everything

[Joy28 in reply to Zelda123]

My doctor has put on the same medication and it's not helping, it did help for some time but since year started I've been very depressed and I've had hallucinations as well

[Zelda123 in reply to Joy28]

You know what I don’t think meds get rid of all the effects of bipolar .. I think that a lot of it is controlling some symptoms and tweaking.. a lot of it is up to us to educate ourselves, understand our bodies and to roll with the punches .. are you artistic ? I am and I’m very creative I love writing poems and painting.. I got so poorly one night that I made a complete mess in my bedroom on this canvas.. the picture was crap but it got rid of a lot of feelings and aggression.. I could have strung someone up that night.. for no reason lol.. I bet you are creative too.. I bet you’ve got tons of ideas but don’t know how to get them across half the time.. like me.. bipolar is the strangest illness.. at the moment I’m screaming one moment, terrified the next, anxious and aggressive then laughing and joking 🙃 it’s all very strange aye .. hold my hand and we will go through it together .. we can talk about how we wish we had a crossbow every time someone sped up as your half way across the zebra crossing.. or how you wish you could just punch the pyramid of teabags in Iceland because of fight and flight 🤣🤣🤣

[mydhen in reply to Joy28]

Dear Joy, I have never experienced bi polar and do not know much about it. There is a group on Facebook "Dealing with Depression" run by fellow sufferers in Britain. One of them signs herself as Katelynne, or "monsterkatelynne" when she sends hugs. She is bi polar. Maybe you can try communicating with that group.

Out of interest - what medication are you on? An old accepted medication was Haloperidol. I was on that for a nervous tic for fifty years and went off it recently. Now have serious withdrawal problems. There are now much better (Generation 3) drugs.

Henry Mydlarz

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[Joy28 in reply to mydhen]

I'm on Lamotrigine, Lexamil, risperidone and trazodone

[Zelda123 in reply to Joy28]

Your on resperidone I want to go back on that what dose you on

[mydhen in reply to Joy28]

I had a rough idea what bi polar was, and I just read up on it, Joy. Nothing came of it so far. It's indeed horrible. Offhand I don't know what can be done. In my search for Haloperidol withdrawal, though, I came across this lady - holisticpsychiatrist.com/

I have not so far asked her about my problem, and I don't know if there is any credibility to her treatments. Maybe you can subscribe to her newsletters or communicate with her. Basically, she focuses on supplements and nutrition in treating mental problems.

Henry Mydlarz

[mydhen in reply to mydhen]

Another link, Joy - holisticpsychiatrist.com/bi...

Henry Mydlarz

[Joy28 in reply to mydhen]

Thank you, I will check the website

[Blueshirt]

I understand how you feel; I have been there myself. There is no magic bullet as such but by being able to join this group you have shown you have the awareness to begin to cope with your depression. There will be bad days but simply by reaching out and engaging with this group you are already moving towards firstly some good periods followed by some good days. Different coping strategies help different people to different extents. When you start you'll think all are useless; but if you have the will to carry on some or all will help. Some breathing exercises help a lot of people; guided meditation (like the Oak App) others; getting out and walking 10 km every day; getting down to the gym; reading novels others. There's lots to try, and whenever you feel everything is too much get on here and send us all a message.

Good luck

[Joy28 in reply to Blueshirt]

Thank you so much

[Hidden]

Contact NHS INFORMATION on Tel 111, they can help to put your mind at rest or arrange an urgent appointment with your GP or Mental Health Crisis Team to assess your ongoing mental health concerns. You could yourself contact your GP and hopefully He can put your mind at rest . If you have a Mental Health Nurse give the Office a telephone cal to explain how you feel. If they come around to see you, have a list ready showing your concerns especially how you feel.

If the need is really bad you can call the EMERGENCY LINE on Tel 999 they can arrange to have you checked out and moved back into hospital if the need arises

Where you SECTIONED when you were taken in last time, ??

BOB

[Joy28 in reply to Hidden]

I was discharged Monday, I was in for 2 weeks.

[Hidden]

If you are still feeling ill it is still important for you to seek help.

Your concerns seem not have been met

Have they arranged any support ?

BOB

[Joy28 in reply to Hidden]

I don't know where to seek help, I'm in South Africa and it's so hard to get help for mental health

[Hidden in reply to Joy28]

Talk to your family Doctor

I am afraid I do not understand S Africa Health Service

BOB

[Jaxs050783]

Stay strong Joy28

[Suzie40]

I know how you're feeling. I haven't been in hospital recently but I've had my meds changed and despite the doctor and my CPN assuring me that I'll be feeling better soon. I'm not though and it's really getting me down!

[Joy28 in reply to Suzie40]

I wish I can stop feeling this way, it's painful and I feel alone

[JessyT]

I’ve been in this place and don’t get me wrong still find my self feeling this way , but I’ve learnt to live with being ME my mind doesn’t fit in with the normal (mum ,friend partner) but that’s ok with me, I talk to anyone and everyone about it which helps! I found that when I dealt with issues by eventually going counselling and having EMDR therapy this help my mind cope with it and put me back in control! It’s so sad to hear you feel this way and the best thing to do it talk!! 💛

[Joy28]

I don't know who to talk too. I'm so depressed