Feel like dying...

[Leo142]

I feel as if I would welcome someone to come and kill me I know I can't do it myself and when I got really upset before to the point of suicidal I noticed I stopped caring so much I'd stop looking when crossing the road or anything that would put me in danger I didn't care as I felt ready for death and the scare of staving myself to death sometimes when I'm feeling like this doesn't even phase me it's just like well I hate myself now and I can't do anything about it

[ilovemusic]

Hi Leo, so sorry you're feeling like that. When I was wanting the universe to kill me off somehow, I ended up seeing a psychiatrist and it truly, truly helped. I mean, I don't think I would've made it out of that despair pit without professional help. What you're going through is very tough so give yourself some compassion and definitely reach out for help. Wishing you all the best.

[loggerslot]

Hi Leo,

I've read some of your previous replies and please don't give up on yourself .

you're 16 years old and you have your life ahead of you to enjoy and make the most of. i know its no easy to see this but trust me. Most of us have been there and had suicidal thoughts to the point of knowing what and how but you should know this is not the right way forward. I've been there and I can tell you that you will do a lot more damage than you are at the moment.

At the moment it seems you may have an eating disorder and this will affect your state of mind and body. getting this right is priority if you want to feel better in yourself. you cannot expect your body and mind to function correctly if you are not giving it what it needs. that's a bit like running a car with as little oil and petrol as possible and you expect the car to go 40 miles. the car will struggle and cause itself damage. I don't know why you have an eating disorder and what caused this to occur but if you want to talk about it then we are here to listen, as I don't to give any advice if its not right for you.

If you are worrying about exams then please don't, sometimes its not worth it if the pressure is too much. if your school is aware of your issue then they will help you get the right support you need but that may involve them telling your parents and don't let that worry you.

if you want to talk more then we are here.

[Luckyring199]

Please, please...get some qualified help and soon. It sounds as though you're deep in the pit and remember if you walked in front of a vehicle you not only damage yourself but you damage anyone else in the vehicle with your trauma.

Just walk into an A&E and tell them how you feel. If you're not up to telling them perhaps writing it down on a piece of paper and handing it to them would make it easier.

Family & friends are ok but usually biased to the tune of 'don't be so dramatic' 'pull you socks up' etc...you don't NEED this right now you need some Proffessional TLC.

Hope you make it through and start to feel better soon.

Will be thinking of you,

Lorraine

(((Hugs)))

[Stilltrying_ in reply to Luckyring199]

Hello Luckyring, I remember you ! and often wonder how people are going on. ( It's like I keep everyone in mind and wonder about them) I hope life is treating you kindly nowadays? Gemma XX

[Celtic27]

Hi leo i dont know what is causing you to think like this have you no friends or family that would miss you think of how those around you. Would feel if you committed suicide ! Please seek help and get better try samaritans or any other group related to suicidal thoughts ! Take care david

[Claire105]

Hi .. life is a roller coaster. I think u need to get help. Or let in someone u trust. Like other people Im fighting my demons. U will make it, open ur heart to someone, u can and will make it. Some of us just need a bit of guidance, but we can't get that unless we are 100% true to ourselves. That goes for u too sweetie. I wish u well. Xxx

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Hello Leo

Go and talk to your family doctor and explain your fears and problems you need some talking therapy

Do you have any ida what has causes this depression ??

You also need to discuss your other problems, discussed in the past, you do need help

BOB

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Leo you have got a number of replies, to this post and your last few. is it possible to come back in and let us know you have read any of the replies to your posts please? It is disheartening replying then never knowing whether the recipient has seen them! x

[teemarie]

My heart hurts for you. You are so young. Please remember everyday is a new day. I once was sixteen and a mess and I wound up in a place here in the States for almost two months. I didnt think life mattered. I wasnt enough to myself or my family. I had no friends. I just didnt think life was worth living. I didnt give a shit. Im thirty now. I wont pretend like my life is great, I still struggle but I have had so many blessings. You have to have faith in yourself. I will tell you just like everyone else, I am proud of you and I love you even though I dont know you. Sometimes people need to hear that. You never know what anyone is going threw but to come to this site obviously you know that you dont want it to end. Please let us know how you are doing.