depression

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the pain depression gives you really hurts.

no one understands how i feel, it's all just a joke to them, nowadays depression and suicide are the best jokes to gain popularity and honestly it's so triggering to hear one and not cry.

it's so hard to cope with it especially when no one cares. they only care when it gets bad, if short term care was an actual thing, everyone who 'cares' about me would have that. most of the people who do care are people who have too because it's their job. i wish people cared for me as much as they cared about others. it hurts even more that i care for them so much that i'd ask them if they're okay everyday and no one would care about how i'm feeling. they really can't see i'm not okay but they don't care, they won't bother with someone who's not enough. it hurts that i'm waiting for them to ask if i'm okay, i'm waiting to see if they care but they don't. i hate it. i hate the feeling.

my family thinks i'm faking it, i'm just being 'rebellious'. my mum told me it's all my fault i'm depressed. it's hard to get better in a household where no one has the patience to deal with your depression, especially with an emotionally abusive mum. i wish one person could listen and understand.

i wish there was someone as lonely as me in this world. that way we would understand each other. i just want an escape route out of my own mind. the feeling of wanting to run away to a place where technology doesn't exist and where no one knows you and you don't have to care about anything y'know? and to be honest at third moment that really sounds like suicide to me. if i wasn't scared i would've been long gone. i'm just too scared for no reason? i have literally nothing left in my life yet i have no idea what i'm living for. my head hurts i'm just looking for an escape route.

[hypercat54]

Hi there are lots of very lonely and troubled people in the world - you are by no means unique. We all get it on here so talk to us and we will do our best to support and help you.

I was wondering how old you are as this affects any advice we can give you. For example if you are 18 you can get yourself to the doctor and seek help if you aren't already. x

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Love yourself first and then you can have the strength to deal with people and their problems. Try to care for yourself, more

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Life can be cruel especially if we suffer from low mood. The problem is we seem to wear our heart on our sleeve and people see the consequences of that and consider if they really want to get involved with someone suffering from what they consider a mental illness. If we had a toothache, or a cold or flue they can relate to those symptoms and those people will get support. We can then become a victim of a basic problem they do not understand. It sometimes takes us time to control our concerns and that is why you need to see your Doctor and arrange some treatment and learn how to move on through your Life. So if not already seek that help you are entitled to

BOB