Looking for some feedback, even if it's just to make me feel better. I'm 19, living with 2 roommates, full time job, and student. I'm not very good at talking about myself, but I'm tired of feeling so alone all the time. I don't talk to my friends about my problems, and I've never felt like I could. They're good friends and all, I just always feel like I'm looking for attention when I talk about myself and that they won't believe me. I've noticed that my happiness depends on my best friend and when we aren't hanging out, or don't have plans in the near future, I begin to feel lonely and depressed. When my friends have plans that don't involve me or aren't as excited about something as I am, I begin to think they're mad at me automatically. I constantly feel like I have to be buying people things or doing things for them to get them to like me, even if they've been my friends for years. I feel like no one cares about me, or notices me. I just want someone, a friend, or a family member, to notice me. I want to feel like someone cares about me and that if I dropped off the face of the earth someone would care. I'm always going out of my way to do things for people, especially my roommates. From things like surprising them with their favorite drinks, and leaving them notes, all the way to covering some of their move in expenses because I knew they were struggling. I feel so alone all the time, and it's starting to get to me. I just want to be happy again for more than an hour at a time.