Leaving You

[MsTree]

There’ll come a day when I no longer care

You’ll look for me, but I won’t be there.

I gave you my heart with complete trust

I guess for you it wasn’t worth that much

I turn my head, so you don’t see my tears

You think I’m weak or so it appears.

I used to feel safe when I was with you

When did you stop seeing my value?

I gave you my best, but it wasn’t enough.

I must leave now, cause I’m not that tough.

You’re going to miss me, with only yourself to blame,

I hope you feel every bit of my pain.

[Hidden]

Felt this way for so long. Maybe depression etc comes with ability of feelings things too hard. You feel as if you love longer, love stronger in a world with a short attention span. So many years later & my heart still hurts. He forgot about me so quickly, dispensed of my presence in his life & yet my heart continues to hurt.

[MsTree in reply to Hidden]

I HATE that I love too much. Is that an oxymoron? After a bout of crying and depression, I'm weak, can't focus, and have no interest in things for a while.

[Hidden in reply to MsTree]

I love too much. Hate it. Torment on earth, loving someone who doesn't deserve it or wants my love. 6 years later I still dream of him, he even hurts me in my dreams. I think of him at least once a day. I've learned to take a deep breath & say "guard your thoughts" & make my mind go blank. Distract yourself asap. But there are days I still cry for awhile, the pain in my chest is unbelievable & I feel as though I can't breathe. It also feeds my depression of course. The fact that I mean nothing to him, is out in the world & is probably in love with someone else kills me. But like one movie said, "some loves you have to kill everyday". And that's what I try to do. I feel your pain, trust me you are not alone. Take care of you

[Stilltrying_]

Very well expressed MsTree. This sort of reminds me of how I felt about my mother from while she was alive. I gave too much. Now it's my turn xx

[Byelka]

Poems and writing can be so helpful. This is beautiful. It sounds like you’re ready to let go of giving yourself to this person and maybe ready to give your best to yourself? You deserve it. It can be very hard to let people go.

[MsTree in reply to Byelka]

I've been through some hard things in life, but I don't remember anything hurting as bad as being betrayed by the one person I gave my heart and trust to. 41 years.

I write happy poems, too.