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[Derbyian]

Hello

I have been fighting depression for about 12 years and it just will not go away.

Been and am in therapy and also on medication.

No friends nearby, no money beyond what I need to survive. But even when I had a good job and income, still depressed.

Most people I know are aware of my condition, but probably not aware of how bad I get. My worst time is the evening, but I also struggle during the day.

No enthusiasm for anything, just floundering through life.

Know what I need to do, want to do it, but can't

[kenster1]

hi im sorry to read of your struggles.im in a similar position to you.even when I had a job and good money I had no chance of being happy due to circumstances in my life.its even worse now in everyway possible but I will get through it somehow and you will as well.stick in at the therapy it really will help.its a case of learning to live with our condition rather than fighting it.small steps lead to big paths you will see it through.

[Plodding_along]

Hi 👋🏻,

If it helps I completely relate to how you’re feeling (and i’m sure many others do too). I’ve been on meds for going on 5 yrs now and although it’s levelled me out, the symptoms just don’t stay away for long. For me it’s a question of purpose. I have (objectively) a great job, but no motivation to do it. It’s been on the cards for a while now but I think finding something to do that I find purposeful and fulfilling will go some way to finding the motivation I desperately lack.

I don’t know if you’re ever considered something similar? It could be helping people (this is purposely vague), working with animals, something creative etc. The way I see it is if i’m going to be spending half my day doing something, it should be something that brings me purpose.

Hope that helps, even if it just gets you thinking

[Cat16]

Hello Derbyian..

Thank you so much for replying to my post, and your very useful advice.

I feel a bit better because I am seeing my GP tomorrow. I can't believe how quickly I have basically checked out of life!.

I gave up a good permanent job to manage a charity that I volunteered with in the past, however there was a lot going on that was just wrong, and I made them aware that I would not be complicit in any of the misleading..

I came home from holiday to find that they had terminated my probation period. I was relieved not to have to go back but I struggle with the rejection, and for 30 years built up a really good reputation professionally..

I am job searching, but don't know how to explain the last five weeks..I know I acted morally and with integrity, but still avoiding the gap explanation.

I have read your post, and you have my sympathy, and respect for your obvious strength of character to endure the depression for 12 years..

If you would like to chat, feel free to drop me a line.

[Derbyian in reply to Cat16]

Hello again,

A chat would be nice at some time. I am busy trying hard to get a job interview ready at the moment so I am on my computer, but may not respond straight away