Help me

[Dontwannabealive2018]

I just lost my best friend, an another friend. Because of stupid mistakes I made and didn’t realise.

I gave up my kids, I’ve given up my home. I don’t know who I am. And right now I don’t want to be on this planet.

I don’t believe my life is worth anything and that everyone would be better off without me

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Hey you!

Whatever pain you are going through, I can’t imagine what it’s like. But you deserve to be here. If you need an escape, if you have access to internet, check out Olafur Arnalds (I think I spelled it right...), and write down all your thoughts on a piece of paper. Every thought. Describe your feelings, let everything out on the page. This helps me let go and process the shit that is hitting me sometimes. Go for a really angry run, or go for a walk. Also writing down 10 things (or 5 if I’m agitated) you’re grateful for, even if you can only think of a few right now, helps feel something either than the pain we don’t want to feel. It can be as simple as having all your fingers. Or water to drink. We need these reminders that the small things count. I hope this helps.

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello and welcome to this very caring and supportive community. We are so sorry you are feeling like this at the moment but anxiousbuthopeful1 is so correct we cant know what you are going through but we can support you and give some tips on how to move forward and seek help. Have you a health professional you can talk to and/or a trusted friend that you can honestly express your thoughts too?

I can see that you are new to this community, could you take some time to look around the site at the 'pinned posts' which are helpful and I have put some telephone numbers below that could be useful too.

Please don't despair we are here for you.

Samaritans - 24 hour helpline: 116123.

NHS 999 (emergencies).

NHS 111 (non emergency number).

MIND UK charity Helpline: 0300 123 3393. [e-mail] or Text:86463.

SANE line Tel: [phone] (4.30-10.30pm daily). sane.org.uk/

Stay safe and let us know how you are doing.

Is there anyone else that can help our member please?

MAS Nurse.

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Welcome to this site

We do not know in what context you have given up on your children or the loss of your home.

As MAS Nurse recommends, you need help and understanding, it is important you can arrange some help. Use those telephone numbers above. Also make an appointment with your GP a double appointment, write out a list of your problems and concerns and discuss those with them

If you are really concerned regards your safety, contact The NHS Information Line on Telephone 111 and explain how you feel

We are also here to give support.

BOB

[kiwibutterfly]

oh sweetheart, even your name is sad. Please get yourself to your GP to get yourself some help. That is the first place to start. take someone with you if you want. We all need support sometimes. You don't say where you are living or how if your kids are in care, but there are organisations who can help you get housed and your children back. One step at a time. Is there a YMCA near you? I worked there for 17 years and know they house people and give support. Look up on google for support groups or ask your GP. If that GP isn't helpful, see another and another until you find one who is. You have the right to see another if you want a second opinion. I am going to assume a Social Worker is involved in your case if you don't have your children any more? Can you contact them? Or make an appointment with Citizen's Advice to get you free advice to get your children back once you have a home. I wish you well x

[Dontwannabealive2018]

Thank you all for the comments.

So I was raising my niece and nephew for 14 months but had to give them up due to a mental breakdown.

And in the process I’ve lost 2 people who said they would be there for me, no matter what. And in the pettiness of it allthey tried to cause drama between myself and my other friends :’(

I’ve given up my home since not being able to afford it without the kids.

I have seen my gp. I’m seeing a psychologist and I’m on medication.

Yesterday was just a very hard and emotional day!

I miss my babies & my friends. But at the same time I’m so tired of taking the blame for everything, even if it isn’t my fault.

I’m sick of trying to make everyone else happy. How do I forget others opinions and work on what makes me happy?

How to I be selfish in a way that’s good for me and my self worth?