Almost back to normal

[wiz145]

Hello everyone my story has been posted. Years of treatment resistant depression. ECT, 25 different medications, as well as a lot of alternative treatments. Update and maybe some good information and I would like to hear as well from people in the same boat, so to speak. I now take tramadol for pain, which lifted my depression. I am back on track, feeling good most of the time. Tramadol really doesn't do much for the pain I am in, but it brings me up to a normal level. I am losing weight, getting things done, improving my relationships, taking better care of myself. I could go on, but I think you get the gist of what I am saying. It turns out that many people with treatment resistant depression have discovered by accident, as they had to have a surgery and they were prescribed tramadol, that it relieved their depression. Don't want to make this too long, so all is well and please, if anybody else has had the same experience, I would like to hear about it. To all those suffering, I feel for you, and hope that some day the fog lifts and the sun shines bright for you. Take care of yourself, you are worth it.

[Krazie]

Wow. I haven't heard of tramadol relieving depression, but I have heard of Gabapentin. I, too, stumbled upon Gabapentin, when i was prescribed for nerve pain. I noticed that it leveled out my moods, without making me feel weird. I did wonder, at first, what was wrong with me, being so level. Then it occurred to me that this is how people must feel, those without mental disorders. I had a good laugh over it.

[Faithfull in reply to Krazie]

You no what they give me in the nut house when pinned down larazapam injection but you can get them in tablet form there the only thing that gives me asence of well being but they won't give me them as of the diazepam on the ott dose ain't my fault I was used yrs as give her anything to shut me up . was diagnosed ADHD at 40yrs old 54 now and still it's the ADHD that's getting me in shit as no one takes me seriously

[Faithfull]

Every tablet works so different to each person daughter given Mental health tablet changed her so much better I was given same tablet lower dose for me emionaly unstable trama ,crisis zone PTSD ADHD but was not as suicidle as when I took them never do I read instructions but got bad liver and it said don't take if u get worse GP said carry on I've stopped them they do reverse on me make me aggressive . Sorry about the in depth report but I think it's great that you got something that makes u feel better like me daughter Christ was a nightmare before . Sorry about the novel best wishes xx

[Krazie in reply to Faithfull]

You have liver disease and the doctor said to keep taking the med that causes liver disease? Maybe the doctor needs a little brain adjustment, eh? That is the exact reason I question everything, and read inserts.

So true - what works for one person may not work for another. Have you found anything that helps you?

Blessings and warm wishes to you, Faithfull.

[Faithfull in reply to Krazie]

Anyway what's normal ? Only joking . Be carful about GP as them pain killers they hate giving out especially if they think there working me son was on them after he was shot in arm ,you must be in bad pain ,morphine is only thing kills me pain .no they won't let me have nothing

[Krazie in reply to Faithfull]

I am so sorry Faithfull about not having your pain under control. I can't imagine what it must be like for you. Just know that i am sorry, and am sending you hugs of relief.

[Faithfull in reply to Krazie]

Bless your heart made pain ain't to bad it's the lonleyness I've got to join something as moved and ADHD it's hard

[Krazie in reply to Faithfull]

Well, you have come to right place, Faithfull. This is a place to talk about your feelings without concern it will get around, or be twisted into something you didn't mean, or just a place to be understood.

I have heard that people with ADHD have an amazing energy level, and that when they find something they can focus on, the focus can be very intense. Which means, when the right position is found, people with ADHD can be terrific workers.

Joining a group who have interests similar to yours is a good idea.

I know what you mean about doctors not wanting to give out pain meds. There is an opiod epidemic here in the states, or so they say. So. now, the doctors have the government restricting what they give out. It has made life harder for a lot of people with chronic pain. I am grateful that my nerve pain is managed with Gabapentin.

Blessings to you, Faithfull!

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Wiz

Have you considered using a TENS Machine for your pain, your GP will be able to arrange an appointment to how the machine works.

I have used TENS now for many years, I was instructed by a Pain Clinic although that pathway may not need to be taken. If you are disabled, you can get the VAT refunded.

If a TENS is needed contact Body Clock on the Internet, they have a good collection of machines. I have several two channel V-TENS and they can reduce your pain

BOB

[Faithfull in reply to Hidden]

Thanks bob

[wiz145]

Thank you to all that replied. The pain doesn't bother me. I have quite a high pain tolerance. Just feeling almost like myself is what I want. I have found so many people on the internet that have had the same reaction from Tramadol. I think also, because I have not been taking any SSRI's etc, that my system is finally getting cleaned out of these meds. I am very grateful to have days where there are very few negative thoughts. The other thing that really helped, is some advice from my therapist. I am a fixer, solver of problems that is part of me and I have done everything I can think of to fix this disease. He suggested that I stop trying to fix it and accept it. If I am having a bad day, so be it, better times will come. This is the attitude I carry around now and it helps, as it puts it into context. This allows me to push through when I am down, as I know at some point it will get better, and allows me to enjoy, be grateful for the times that I am not down, suicidal negative thoughts, lethargic etc. I just wish I had a magic wand to relieve any and all suffering that my friends on Health Unlocked are going through, I feel for you. All the best and keep on keeping on. The answer is out there and you will find it and conquer or at least find that you can cope and have a good life. There is so much more to share I mean at 62 and having this since early teens, I have tried a lot. Live, Love, Laugh ..

[Faithfull in reply to wiz145]

I'm ready for the put out to graze yard at ! 54 ! I hate it in me head I'm same till I walk past mirror !!! No ain't that bad your post given metes son to take me time read it take it in thanks it was I have always had to fight 5kids on me own . Adults now now I'm fighting me own body

[Krazie in reply to Faithfull]

I have decided that we are only 'put out to pasture' when we decide it's time. It will be time when I can no long do for myself. All I have to do is give the cardiologist a call, and ask to have my ICD turned off. And Bingo, I will skip the most miserable part of the journey. Until then, I will do , and do , and do - do as much as I can. Every morning when I get up, I thank the Good Lord for another day of sunshine. And ask to be guided where he wants me to go. Worked out well so far.

[Krazie in reply to Krazie]

Faithfull, you raised 5 kids on your own? Though we are separated by an ocean, we have so much in common. I raised 6 kids; 5 boys and a girl. Nobody knows hard work, until they have gone through that. Right?

I made a lot of mistakes while raising them, but I did the best I could, given the tools I had. Most of my kids have stayed in the same area, so I get to see them quite a bit.

[Faithfull in reply to Krazie]

You are a breathe of fresh air I'm banned America if your there criminal record well on Ritalin now crime wave gone down no lol

[Krazie in reply to Faithfull]

Faithful, I am in America, in the Rockies. The air here is not so fresh, anymore. I am at about 4500 feet elevation. Have to go to higher elevations to get fresh air.

How did you get yourself banned from the U.S.? Did you get yourself into a bit of trouble before you went on medication? That happens a lot.

[Krazie]

Blessings to you, wiz. Acceptance of what we cannot change is very hard. From your writings it appears that you have accepted a great deal. You have a good doctor, to help you along the path of acceptance.

Yes, it is hard to hear of the sufferings of others, and not be able to help, much. I think that listening, and letting others know that you are listening, and responding can be of help. Just to know that someone out there understands.......

Sometimes, the grief of others hits me so hard, I have to take a step back. It's almost as if their suffering brings up old feelings that I once had, and still do, at times. I want so much to be able to wrap my arms around them, and tell them all will be okay. At least for that moment. To be young, and have to deal with the ravages of mental illness, while at the same time trying to figure who they are as a person, is so hard. I see bravery and resolve all the time on this website.

My own depression and anxiety started when I was six, from traumatic experiences. I was so accustomed to feeling that way, that I didn't recognize how bad it was, until I developed psychosis. Just wanted to say that I have learned to accept and live with what I cannot change. And to get help when needed. My outlook on life is different now, from when I was younger. I overcame, just as you did, wiz. Just as many others who post will overcome.

Thanks for sharing!!

[wiz145 in reply to Krazie]

You have a way with words. Your reply is so well written and descriptive. All the best, be well. Your life is your journey.

[Krazie in reply to wiz145]

Well, thank you, wiz. I like to think that what I am saying makes sense, but never know until some one tells me. Life is definitely a journey. My daughter wants me to write a journal about my journey. Haven't done it yet, just lazy, I guess. Tho', I do think it is important to pass down whatever we can from days gone by. My grandmothers had such fantastic stories to tell. Both were born in the 1880's, so they lived through a lot of changes. i can't even begin to remember all they told me. If they had written journals, or diaries............

[Faithfull in reply to Krazie]

I love all the old ways are you ok or not and I just think I started a row I said I hated the girl eating sweets bet she weighs 7stone but it was joke adhd

[Faithfull in reply to Krazie]

I think I started another row it on the liver one the person is right pompous that's all I'm allowed to say !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Krazie in reply to Faithfull]

Those pompous ones need to be told a thing or two. Not sure it helps, though,

[Krazie]

Oops. Sometimes words pop out of my mouth, before I even know what they are. Sometimes, I have try and make amends. Not everyone will let me. If I bring out sweets, it helps.