* Trigger Warning* - The voices are real although it’s only me that can hear them

[thrillseeker]

After battling mental health for many years now I have finally spoke out and told my partner that I hear voices after she left me, I was riding my bike to ladybower to drowned myself on the way I got a puncher so had to push my bike home the voices said it’s my fault then came cut your self up, pour petrol over you and set a light, I ended up calling 111 as I was scared

I know it’s not the best thing to do keeping things from your loved ones but you have to understand I was scared that she would leave me and now look at what’s happened she left me any ways. We have spoken and she says she will come back once I am better as much as I believe her the voices are telling me she’s gone for good and laughing at me telling me I should end my life I am taking diazepam only short term and that helps but once it out my system their return and I can’t focus I have spoken to my partner she says the voices are daft and I shouldn’t listen to them but it’s hard I should have been truthful from the start as I believe that something took over my body when I was four years old and I don’t believe my kids are mine I am so scared that I have lost her and kids

[GillyGangGong]

Awe bless you. I’m sorry your going through this. I think you need may need more than Diazepam, have you got an early intervention psychosis team in your area? If your hearing voices and are willing to work with a mental health care professional your half way there.

My son has MH issues and he doesn’t even allow himself to believe he is sick. Like you I hope he realises mental health issues are nothing to be ashamed of. Xx

[thrillseeker in reply to GillyGangGong]

I will ask my doctor tomorrow as I need to see her as to how I am doing but thank you anyway x

[GillyGangGong in reply to thrillseeker]

Good for you good luck let us know how you get on. Xx

[thrillseeker in reply to GillyGangGong]

I will and thank you again x

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I’m so sorry to hear about this. I don’t have much advice to offer, except don’t listen to them. You deserve to live this beautiful life & experience everything the world has to offer. My boyfriend told me he will come back when I am better to, and I know it hurts when the person you love says that. I am here & can relate to you through this. I’m here if you need me. Keep fighting to stay alive. We are all fighting with you. xo

[thrillseeker in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much, it does hurt yes but I don’t think I could wait like six months or longer I know she means well because it’s not nice living with it and in it x

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Thrillseeker

Sorry about your girlfriend, you may have opened a parcel of problems there and it may be better to let this one go, especially if you feel She is not attentive to your needs.

Diazepam may be a stop gap to help you settle. Your GP may arrange a course of treatment and medications that will help you move on in a more inclusive way.

Talk to your GP when you ask for a repeat script

BOB

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I hear voices too, what happens to your voices if you go for a slow long walk somewhere, you can try with or without music.