Need some help

[Alex79]

I'm 17 years old and I feel like I might have depressed / anxiety. Basically one time for no reason when I was lying in bed I just started panicking like I thought I was having a heart attack. What has followed is 2 months of hell where all I can think about is not having another episode I feel completely different as an individual and I just feel like I'm pretty much already dead you know life is so short and if science is right it doesn't really mean much and I just can't understand how people live day to day knowing this it makes me feel alienated and I can no longer enjoy anything really. I really want to know if I can ever go back to normal because I'm not sure how much more of this I can take.

Thanks alex

[Hidden]

I'm sorry that you find yourself in your present state of mind. Can you think of anything that may have contributed to the feeling of panic that night? Had you been under a lot of stress?

[Alex79 in reply to Hidden]

I think it might be a combination of things I mean I'm close to finishing school and this is causing me too worry because I'm not sure what's going to happen. In general I'm finding loads of things more stressful than before for example I've always been fine flying on planes but when I got on one the other week I just went full panic mode like picturing the plane crashing and thinking about dying and shit anyone else get this?

[mtlda]

I can totally understand where you’re coming from Alex. I’m 21 now and I had a lot of the same problems (and still do!) with kind of, contemplating life, wondering what the meaning is, why are we here and is it all meaningless? It made me feel depressed and sad too, and I struggled to feel happiness anymore because I felt like everyrhing we do to fill time - working, going to school, etc - was just to distract us from our existence. I also felt alienated, and I do now sometimes still, but I hope me just saying this makes you realise that you aren’t alone. I promise you you aren’t alone.

And I think what you need to realise Alex is that you’re so special just for being intelligent and intuitive enough to feel these things, to notice what the masses don’t. To be one of the ones who sees and understands that there must be more than just this. I know you feel pain because of these feelings but I promise it’ll be okay.

I don’t know how open-minded you are, but I’d really appreciate it if you could try to do some meditation for me because I promise I think it will really help you.

I mean this in the sincerest way, I will keep checking on here too to see if you’ve responded. Let me know how you are, because I care and I understand you and I truly hope you’re alright and that m message has helped.

[Alex79 in reply to mtlda]

Thank you for this response. I have been doing some meditation and I know how helpful it is I think I'm going to go and get professional help if it doesn't get better in a month or so. But again thank you don't know how much better it makes me feel knowing someone else has gone through this aswell.

[mtlda in reply to Alex79]

Good! Keep up with that and if you need anything else ever or just someone to talk to I’m only a message anyway. 😊 and no problem I hope you feel better!