I new to this and after another awful weekend self inflicted as usual, I'm feeling worse than ever. I'm 22 and have been on anti depressants (fluoxetine) and anti anxiety tablets (propanolol) since I was 18. I lost my job around 6 months ago and am having trouble with finances and debt this has made my symptoms 100 times worse and recently have been prescribed sleeping tablets. Even though the medications I am on help me I still feel terrible everyday and drink excessive amounts of alcohol which makes me then make stupid decisions which push my friends and family away from me. This has happened a number of times and recently it's getting more frequent, it's become a horrible recurrent cycle that I just dont seem to be able to get away from. I worry, feel anxious and depressed and then think I'll have a drink which turns into sometimes two or more bottles of wine. I then feel even more terrible the next day all my symptoms amplified by 100 sometimes I can't get back to my normal self again for up to three or four days but then it all starts over again. I know that stopping drinking will stop this but I don't seem to be able to. I'm not an alcoholic but I feel I'm stuck in a rut at the moment and even though I try my hardest to think okay let's stop this now I soon fall back into the cycle again.
Any advice would be much appreciated.
Hi Kelly I am sorry you are feeling this way and welcome to the site.
I am going to be blunt - if you know the drink is making you worse and you can't stop then maybe you are on the way to alcoholism? An alki isn't just someone who is on the streets on a park bench - it is defined as anyone who drinks to excess who finds it very hard to stop. You also sound like you go on benders which is another characteristic.
I know a lot of people turn to legal drugs, drinking, smoking etc. as a crutch for emotional problems and I am guilty of that myself but I can stop and do which is the crucial difference. Maybe you should seek alcohol counselling? Or I know it's a clique but maybe pay your doctors a visit and see if they can help. You obviously can't continue like this so you have to take action now before it gets any worse. Thank's what I think anyway. Stay with us here as we are a very supportive and friendly bunch who will try and help all we can. It's nice to meet you. x