first i want to apologize about the last post, I was just (as others explain) inactive so this cause a kind off being down. So i took their advises and try different things, and it did work. Thanks to everyone who replay to me
so i here to talk about my best friend, or she was. last year I had a huge controversy with my roommates, so she was the only one who stand for me and helped me. I really loved her as my sister .. so last year we were just all the time together .. when one from the second year entered our small group.. we were all fine chatting and having good time .. it was okay, but at the end of the first semester she started to avoid me .. I thought it was just my imagination .. so after the semester i was really worried, she didn't send me back she didn't even answer my calls..
then i decide to call her mother, i was really afraid that something bad happened to her.. she didn't answer my calls but she send me messages through what'sup, she told me that i have to give my friend some spear time and she don't want to see anyone.. she even told me not to meet her at the college... i did what she told me but i couldn't hold myself for more than 3 months .. so i tried to speak to her face to face and tell her everything.. she told me that she's doing this to everyone and it's normal thing ... i didn't want to bother her, so i left .. i saw through her eyes and attitude she don't want to speak to me anymore ..
so all this time i wondered if i did bad thing to her, i was afraid i will really lose her like i lose all my friends before.. she was so nice to me and i really did my best to accompany her and make her happy .. it really breaks my heart to see her leaving me without any word... it really hurts .. and now it has been 7 months since the last time she reply to me .. she blocked me everywhere ..
we were so much alike, like we meant to be together ... so i thought it was because our new friend, but she so nice .. and my friend was in good mood with her, like they had the same taste of music and like same bands .. so when she started to act weird, i thought she was jealous ...because i know myself ... when i was in high school i was so jealous to my friends so this cause a lot of arguments ... i learned from my mistakes.. but she was all mature, so i told myself she can't be jealous because of this she know that i will be loyal to her, and i really do..
so now i really don't know what's wrong, have i done something hurts her? or she's jealous and i ignore her feelings .. i don't know .. i want to know, i want to be friend with her again .. it really hurts me she just ignore me and left without any words... i tried to move on, for real, for real, for real .. but i wasn't able to stop thinking about her.. i just i want to say i am sorry for anything i did just be my friend again ..