Recent break up

[Tech40]

Hi I'm new here so be gentle, I've had severe depression for many years now,, on various tablets etc, and just recently I was diagnosed with high anxiety as well as high blood pressure.

My relationship of 21 years recently broke up this year, me and the kids mom have got on really well, had a holiday away, but the last few days somthing has happened and completely knocked me down and I've now idea how to cope anymore, I spent 7 hrs in a&e a couple of nights back which was the start, I just really don't think I can cope anymore.

[Mayzday]

Hi Tech40. My advice to you would be to get as much help and as quick as possible., from anywhere you can friends family... counselling metal health. Unfortunately when this happened to me I didn't get the help at the right time and I fell in a very big black hole and I'm still in it. You just think, this would just get better. I Think if you don't get help quickly it becomes a habit forming some new really bad habits that you get yourself into and can't get out of. Completely shut down. And now I can't cope with anything I can't get out. I'm frightened of everything. I met my husband when I was 15 and he was 16 and we went out together until I was 19 and we were married. We were very happy a loving happy marriage he was the nicest person I ever met. He very understanding caring all round a wonderful husband. we were friends very good friends.

We decided to join the military. Stayed in for 22 years travelled the world and it was wonderful. We had a daughter and a son who which we love very much. When we finished in the army we came out bought a house and generally got on with life. We were coming up to our 40th anniversary and so we decided to take a short holiday abroad we were there for a week. My husband had a stroke. He he almost died.

9 weeks till he recovered enough to come back to the UK. It took him an almost a year to recover and he did very well. You would not know anything ever happen to him he recovered so will. Unfortunately three months after he had a couple of heart attacks went back in to hospital. He did recover.

it affected him quite badly and he was never quite the same. About 2 years later I found out that he was having an affair. and it all came crashing down... 42year marriage was over just like that. I still find it unbelievable his soft gentle man. A liar a cheat devious the things I found out afterwards what he done unbelievable oh on top of all of that we found out we're in lot debt he paid any of his bills for 2 years. He Spent all our savings we didn't have a penny left. after the divorce I had to sell our home and pay the debts. I am 62. I am 63. and now I have nothing. Apart from bad health and no one to look after me. Now he lives abroad in the sunshine. Unfortunately I'm sorry to say but some things you just don't get over. Maybe if you get some help quick enough you won't end up in a miserable life that I've got. I wish you all the very best and you get well. Mayzday☺️