hi everyone. some months ago my doctor told me i was my 'own worst enemy' - this was only a few minutes after he'd said he thought i was extremely depressed. well, despite the fact that - surely - no doctor should make this kind of blunder, in fact he was right on both counts. but how do i pull myself out of what seems to me to be an impossible situation? i'm almost 70 years old, live extremely rurally with no transport, and i'm nowhere near any of the friends i used to have when i lived in a city. added to that, i seem no longer to be able to work creatively: i just feel 'what's the point?' my whole life was built around my identity as an artist, but now that's gone, and my friends have gone, and my mobility is severely limited (no rural buses and i don't drive) i seem to have wound up in the middle of nowhere. i feel that i can just about get through the days, keep the house more or less together (but not clean) and keep my little cat healthy and well looked after, and i enjoy the birds and animals in the garden, but beyond that i can't find the energy or the will to do anything. i keep in touch with friends on social media, but it's not the same as face to face. i have no 'significant other' - nor even an insignificant one. there's nowhere close enough for me to walk to (physical mobility is compromised, too) so i can't attend group activities, even if i wanted to - which i don't! i can't sell up and move away, for complicated reasons. i'm slowly getting less and less active and more and more depressed. i guess this is a cry for help - though what kind of help anyone could give me, i don't know?