Trying my best right now to follow my routine before i get depression. Tryna do some chores while listening to some music. Although i feel kinda tired and still depressed but I'm doing my best to get myself out of depression. Really hope the cheerful and carefree old me make a comeback soon. I really want to go to meet the doctor but when i try to explain things to my mom she doesn't seem to understand and keep telling me that I'm thinking too much and that I'm too young to be depressed about life. That hurts me a lot but there's nth i can do. I'm just a 17 years old girl who is still a student. I can't afford to go to the doctor alone since it will cost some money for prescription and stuff. Sighhh~~
Really don't know how to get myself out of this. Feel so tired and fed up when no one seem to understand and they keep telling me I'm thinking too much or ask me the reason why i feel depressed. I don't even know why do i feel like this. Depressed, hopeless, lack motivation, started to loss weight and don't feel hungry. The worst thing is no matter how tired i am i can't fall asleep and when i sleep, i keep having nightmare. I'm also a very sensitive person so i avoid watching tv, news, social media etc. I used to enjoy going to school and meet friends but not anymore.