I'm back again, as I've recently relapsed with alcohol. I don't know what I was thinking or why I have done it. I regret it so much as I was doing so well without it but I've gone a whole week of just pure binge drinking and not going to university. I've tried to take my life twice within this time.
I'm feeling the effects of withdrawal, like sweating, headaches etc. But I just really worry that I will relapse again and one day I'll succeed in suicide. Drunk me wants to die, sober me doesn't. I feel like I'm fighting something that's too strong.
My mum died of alcoholism and I just worry the same will happen to me. I have a husband who I don't want to see hurt, as I know how it feels.
Thanks for any feedback! It would be nice to hear any advice people may have to help me through my rough patch. Or even just someone to chat to.