My head is mashed

[ChidgeyLou]

Over the past few weeks my mood has been getting lower and lower.

My anxiety has spiralled out of control and is now controlling me.

My mood swings are unbearable. I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore. Nothing seems to make me happy.

I literally just want to shout and scream at everyone and everything. I feel so alone and feel like no one understands.

My partner constantly asks if I’m okay which drives me mental! I feel like he tip toes around me because he doesn’t know what I’m going to be like.

I have no motivation to go to work, the gym or to even cook or clean. I suffer with OCD too so normally my home is immaculate and constantly clean but I just have a can’t be bothered attitude all the time.

I’m on so much medication I don’t know what’s working and what isn’t anymore.

Psych team and Depression and Anxiety service aren’t any help either.

I’m stuck in a rut. 😢

[monicrt80]

Hello there, I have also experienced all the symptoms you have listed and unfortunately the same issues with my partner. He doesn't tip toe around anything but we sometimes feed off of each others raging moods since we're both bipolar. I've been in a serious downhill spiral for months now but was just diagnosed recently. Have you mentioned the meds don't seem to be working to your doctor? I can tell you from my recent experiences that anti depressants can have the opposite effect and actually make you worse off if you're suffering from something more than depression.

I'm terribly sorry you are having a hard time but it will get better. It may take some time to start feeling better but that's okay, for now just try to focus on yourself and anything that makes you happy even if it's small or baby steps.

[ChidgeyLou]

I’ve contacted my GP she just keeps putting off changing any medication. Makes me ‘wait another month’ and then I get the same thing. I feel like I’m hitting brick walls all the time.

I just don’t know where to start with all my emotions.

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi ChidgeyLou,

Welcome to our supportive community. I'm really sorry that you are having a rough time at the moment and that you don't seem to be getting appropriate support from your GP. If you have more than one GP in your practice, you are entitled to see another one, who maybe more understanding. Try to contact your community mental health team again, don't give up. Can you leave a message or email them? It does sound like a medication review would be helpful with one them; also, you could try speaking to your regular pharmacist who do have some clout with the GPs. Sorry if I'm proverbially teaching a grandmother to suck eggs, but have considered having some psychotherapy/CBT/counselling? Even if you have had it in the past, maybe it is worth asking your GP for a referral to have more one-to-one sessions to try to get to the bottom of why things seem out of control at the moment. Here are some links to more information for OCD, but the MIND UK covers all MH conditions and has a helpline too.

mind.org.uk/information-sup...

mind.org.uk/information-sup... Information line: 0300 123 3393 )Mon-Fri. 9am to 6pm) Email: [e-mail] Text: 86463

OCD-UK Helpline 03332 127890 (10am-4pm Mon - Fri) ocduk.org/how-ocduk-help

Here's a free pdf guide on OCD shawmindfoundation.org/wp-c...

Hang in there, you will come through this and get back on an even keel again.

We are listening, and as you have found already, folks here are very willing to come alongside and offer support.

Take care.