Sad in the morning

[gilip]

Hi I had a breakdown in October gave up my job and have been so full of anxiety and panic since. I wake up so sad and don’t want to get up!! I recently started on meds and the side effects seem to be loss of appetite and more anxiety. Been on them for 5 whole days and am just wishing away this next month til they take effect. I was abused through my childhood and though I have received counseling I still think the anxiety hangs over from then. Just wanted to reach out, is anyone there?? Gilip

[DragonTears]

Hi gilip,

Yes, I am here there are many of us who are here to listen and to support as best we can. I think almost everyone on here including myself, have had issues with meds in the beginning. Just hang in there and keep taking them. 5 days is very fresh and the side-effects will lessen. If you still feel like this in a couple of weeks, tell your doctor as sometimes it takes a few frogs before you find the medication that suits you. What are you on now? Don't give up! Sorry to hear about the abuse as a child. Those kind of things will leave a mark forever, but you can learn to live with it and even forgive and let go, although there is no deadline for it. It is good that you have received counselling for it, that seems to have helped, but it is not a "cure" for sure. You will have to take your time to come to terms with it. Anxiety is not a sign of weakness, it just stands proof that you have gone through hard times. being subject to abuse as a child is certainly something that changes your view of the world and the way you see and trust other people. At a time where you were meant to be safe and be able to trust the adult world to look after you, you were instead robbed of that. It is a kind of betrayal and it is a loss that you mourn. I am not going to throw cliches at you about not trying to control what you can't and how it wasn't your fault. Both statements very true, but seldom helpful. All I can offer is a listening ear and support without judgement. I think the betrayal of a child's trust and innocence is the worst one! Big Hugs and please feel free to share more if you want!

[gilip in reply to DragonTears]

Thank you so much for your loving reply, I am on cipromil 20mg. Yes you saying it wasn’t my fault re abuse, so right but took me years to believe it. I have let go and forgiven all those involved but I think the scars cause anxiety in me. I will persevere with the meds trying to live just one day at a time, thanks

[gilip in reply to DragonTears]

Thanks dragon tears now on day 15 Of meds and I just feel today that things can and will improve. Thank you so much for encouraging me to continue talking the meds x x

[DragonTears in reply to gilip]

I am so happy to hear it!! Hang in there!

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello and welcome Gilip to this caring and supportive community. Sorry to hear about the abuse during childhood. Despite the counselling you received before you may now be ready for more especially if the counselling was a long time ago so it's worth mentioning about it to your professional team now. Hang on in there as Dragon tears is correct 5 days is not long enough to feel any benefit yet. If however you experience side effects over and above what is on the information leaflet please contact the health professional as not every medication suits everyone. It may require a few to get the dose or type correct for you. there are some very good guides and information in the 'Pinned Posts' so do have a look around. Best wishes and do keep in touch with us all.

Mas Nurses.

[Vonnah]

Stay strong! I hope your side effects go away.

[gilip in reply to Vonnah]

Well thanks am on week 5 now so a lot of side effects have left and beginning to feel slightly better!! Thank God one day at a time

[Vonnah in reply to gilip]

Wow great job! Good for you! Yep! 😉🙌