For the past two days I felt like I couldn't make it at school. I hid in the bathroom with negative thoughts rushing through my head. I couldn't control it. I felt horrible. I started cutting my hair and my arms. I scribbled things on my arms and face. I felt so ugly. I hated my life and I hated my face. I went over everything I hated over and over again. Two girls found me there and got the teacher. She took me to the guidence counsler and they talked it through. I didn't want to say anything. I didn't have anything to say. I just felt that way. The nurse cleaned me up and they sent me to class. The next day, when I woke up to go to school, I couldn't really move my hand. I slept so deeply to forget and when I woke up the memories came back. I missed the bus so my babysitter was taking me to school. I offered her five dollars if she didn't make me go and she agreed. She told my dad that I threw up. I feel guilty. I don't want to go to school Monday. I just wish I could avoid it. I'm a 16 year old female.