Please help. I just want to have some sort of idea what is wrong with me.

[PacotheTa]

Please help. I’m now 19 almost 20, And although these issues may not sound like much, dealing with all this for over 5 years is really taking its toll now. Especially with all issues that have occurred as a result. I just want to be dead to be honest.

- Depression

- Constant Irritability

- Sexual intrusive thoughts

- Violent intrusive thoughts

- Self-harm

- Paranoia

- Short-term memory problems

- Reckless spending

- Constant tiredness

- Suicidal thoughts

- I constantly feel like everything isn’t real. And that everybody else knows what’s really happening except me

- Difficulty with social situations

- Slow cognitive functioning

- Physical tics

- Many issues with getting my words out

- petrified of the dark to the point I’m hallucinating things coming for me and moving in the dark, even when I’ve got light I don’t feel anywhere near safe

[Hairiusmaximas_55]

You may have what I do. Both Combat PTSD and Bipolar Disorder #1 all military service connected. With my combo I have almost exclusively what I have.

[PacotheTa in reply to Hairiusmaximas_55]

The only thing is I haven’t been in the military. So could there be PTSD related to childhood abuse? But also wouldn’t I know if I had PTSD, because I don’t have flashbacks or nightmares?

Thank you for you comment.

[Hairiusmaximas_55 in reply to PacotheTa]

You do not have to have nightmares With PTSD many do not. My problem is Combat PTSD from Iraq. My problem is Night terrors. Very few people have that.

[MAS_Nurse]

Helo PacotheTa, thank you for your post and wishing you a very warm welcome to our friendly and caring community. I am sure that you will soon make new friends here who will reach out and support and encourage you. Perhaps you would like to give us a little more background history about yourself, so that we can come to know you and understand you better. I am very sorry that you are experiencing so many mental health symptoms and for such a long time. That must impact on your day to day life a lot and also impact on your quality of life, which must be very difficult for you. You are very young and have your whole life and future to plan for and to be able to set yourself some aims and goals. But in order to do this, I think you do need to get Professional Help and support, so that you can start to feel better in yourself. If you have not already done so, I wonder would you make an urgent appointment to see your GP , and tell him/her what you have told us on here and maybe print off and bring this letter with you. You can ask to be put in touch with your local Mental Health Team and Crisis Support. Your doctor or referral to a Psychiatrist will be able to give you a diagnosis to explain the varying symptoms you are experiencing. In this way then, suitable treatment such as medication and counselling therapies can be put in place for you, to help you begin to feel better and to know there is help out there for you. Please do not give up hope as you can feel better in time and more able to cope with your day to day life. Please call the Samaritans on ....Freephone......116 123 24 hours a day if you are in need of a friendly confidential listening ear. You may also like help and support from .....

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Sane Helpline......0300 304 700

Also do take a look at the Pinned Posts section where you will find useful information and contact numbers under the heading of Crisis Support.

Above all, please look after yourself and get the help and support you need and deserve from your GP and other Health Professionals.......I really hope that you can start to feel better soon with treatment for yourself ......with very best wishes and kindest regards and good luck to you.....