Don’t feel bad, everybody has problems, it’s normal 😊 I hope you start feeling better soon

Hi Marc, I'm sorry to read about your struggles. Cliches exist for a reason; they happen to people! Traumatic events can often take an underlying illness and throw it to the fore. I also understand when you say you have been drinking to escape the pain, if only for a few hours. Obviously this is not an ideal solution but it's one I relied on for years, until it stopped working. I can't drink at all with the medication I take for bipolar disorder and that's definitely a good thing - alcohol was taking me into a very dark tunnel. The feelings of hopelessness, shame and worthlessness are classic symptoms of depression. Have you seen a doctor? It's really important that you do, they are quite used to it, there's not the same stigma, at least in the medical world, attached to depression these days. I've been in that place where all hope seems lost and it is terrifying. There are people out there whose job it is to stop you feeling this way, don't feel guilty about seeking help, or about drinking. Guilt is a destructive emotion, although I know you can't just make it go away. You are not on your own, there are millions of us out there finding hope; with the right treatment you can get better and enjoy life again. I was diagnosed as bipolar when I was being treated for post-traumatic stress disorder after a gang of 14-year-old little sh*ts smashed up my face with a brick as I was walking home early one morning in east London. That was 12 years ago. I was drinking, hiding from the world but, once I had a name to put to the bewildering and terrifying emotions I was feeling, I felt reassured that I was suffering from a disease and that disease, while not curable, is treatable. These days I get by. It's a bumpy road to recovery but you've made a great start by posting. Don't feel lonely, we're hear for you!

Why ignore you? You don't deserve that. An I know depression is a horrible thing but don't give up just yet. Everything happens for the better. God is working things out for you,when he closes one door in your life another one will open. Try to focus on yourself for now and don't go to alcohol for help it'd just leave you in a wreck. Sometimes people are meant to walk away from us cause they prevent us from being happy an God always sees to it that he removes the useless things in our lives. Jesus is paving your way so don't worry about a thing just keep a positive mindset and so sorry I'm not forcing religion on you I hope you don't feel intimidated but I hope I was of some help at least. God bless and take care

Please don’t feel ashamed or worthless. Every human being on this planet has value. I bet there is something you know, that I have never learned. Maybe even something hardly anyone knows!

Many, many people have been in your place, and many are still there. But it’s a good step that you decided to reach out here, we try to be as helpful as possible 😊

Just a few questions, are to seeing a doctor or therapist, taking any medications? I feel like now would be a good time if you haven’t yet. They can teach you some good coping skills, as well as how to deal with the alcohol and find a way to be happy without it.

I hope you are able to find peace, breakups can often times be difficult, and I know this sounds cliche but it’s true (for the most part): Time heals all wounds. Eventually, you’ll get there. But if you’re drinking regularly and depressed, you won’t get there as fast or maybe ever, without treatment. Good luck on your journey, and give yourself a pat on the back. You tried, you took the first step, and that’s the hardest part.

Hi Marc , sorry , I can't ignore you. Once you post on here you are ours. Alcohol is a depressant , so you are adding fuel to the fire, another cliché for you. It seems to me most people are self medicating with something; food, booze , drugs, abusing others, gambling , sex . It's an endless list. To some degree we all hurt. I don't know why knowing others are struggling should help, but it seems too. Misery loves company I guess. OMG, what is with the clichés . BlackandBlue has given you excellent advice , just what I would have said if I'd have gotten to you first. Maybe if you can put yourself first ( I suspect you don't ) and get a handle on your health issues then you might be ready for another go with your former partner. This is fixable, hard work, but you say bring it on, right? Right. Remember, you can say anything to us. We love you , but we don't know who the hell you are. Pam

You have nothing to be ashamed of. We all do what ever we have to too get by.You're probably going to need some help at some point. I imagine you will be getting more responses from other members. What have you tried so far?

I've tried pretty much everything being on here is my last resort. I've even been prescribed temazipan in the past to help me, but I can't have those constantly cause their highly addictive. The only thing that seems to help is drinking.. I know it's self destructive and maybe there's something about it that i sub consciously want to just decay. I feel as if ive tried everything and theres nothing out there for me.. maybe ive left it too long to speak out now, I just know it's wrong in the long run but it's working for me. All though I literally pass out every night from drinking.. I end up waking around midnight.. and find myself drinking again.. I'm cringing just writing this