i hate when im trying to go ab...

[tiredbbygirl]

i hate when im trying to go about my day and i get hit with an indescribable bad emotion, its like something in my brain is going bitter. its so hard for me to explain and put into words, its like everything feels repetitive, monotonous, pointless. I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO GO ABOUT MY DAY WITHOUT this bad emotion lurking in my brain. idk what it is and i want it to go away because its so hard to enjoy things anymore, i would cry about it if i wasnt so darn numb. i was telling my counselor yesterday its like the wiring in my brain got cut or changed and i dont like it all, its disturbing and unsettling. i feel like im going braindead or something. does anyone know what im talking about? has anyone had an indescribably BAD feeling in their brain? like an actual heavy feeling that haunts them at certain times of the day?

[Frozenimages]

Yes. A sudden looming feeling of dread. Like you just received an indescribable feeling where something is going to go wrong. It's strange. I feel like my body goes into fight or flight mode, my heart starts beating faster and I feel like I'm about to be attacked or some crazy stuff. I was abused by a former boyfriend. Horrible things. I don't believe I have PTSD but a counselor I use to see said that kind of trauma can trigger that. Have you experienced anything like that? Something in your past that might cause these feelings you get?