I give up

[scarsbeneathyourbeautiful]

I can’t even begin to describe just how lost I feel. Depression is creeping back even worse than the first time all those years ago. Never have I ever thought that this would happen to me again. I don’t think I can survive this a second time.

[MattBuckland]

Hi there

I am sorry to hear that you are feeling like this.

I am unfortunately going through the same thing at the moment.

Posted a few days ago and have been getting worse even with all the help from all the lovely people on here. If we did it once we can do again.

Just need to be kind to ourselves. Wrote a few of my worries down and that helped a bit, tried to prioritise. Tired now and going to turn in.

Sorry that I could not be more help. I am sure that people on here will be able to give a bit more than me today. If you have the energy then it would be useful to explain your situation a bit more.

Hope you have had some peace in the three hours since you posted.

Thanks, Matt

[scarsbeneathyourbeautiful in reply to MattBuckland]

Thank you for the reply. I’m sorry you’re also going through such a hard time, I do hope things improve and you manage to sort a few things out. For me, I don’t believe I can get through it a second time. The first time was hard enough.. Now I’m currently going through a break up and I feel I have lost everything. I don’t see how things can improve from here.

[Hidden]

Hiya, so sorry to hear that you are experiencing such a difficut time. Have you been to see your GP to see how they can help you? Medication can be helpful in coping with depression. You mentioned counselling in a previous post? Was that helpful? What type of counselling was it? Are you able to talk to friends/family about the issues you are facing? Sorry for asking so many questions ! Sometimes really bad things happen and we need a lot of support to get through it and it takes time but please don't give up, because things can and do get better and you never know what's round the corner. Please be kind to yourself and don't feel like you are alone, because there are lots of people who are prepared to listen and offer their support and advice. Take care,

[scarsbeneathyourbeautiful in reply to Hidden]

GPS tend to be useless with mental health round here if I’m honest, I went to private counselling a few months ago for a few relationship issues but not anymore, those issues kind of resolved at the time and I didn’t feel I needed it once I got there as she could see I was ‘depressed’, I was just struggling with a few things. I probably do need it now but I can’t afford to go right now. My family and friends haven’t been the best, my family think the world of him despite him treating me wrong and just want me to get back with him. My friends haven’t helped that much, I feel so alone. Thank you for your kind words.

[Clarebear86 in reply to scarsbeneathyourbeautiful]

Unfortunately when you feel the way you do, I’m not sure anyone can actually help and tell you what you want to hear. That’s how I feel when I’m quite low and lost. Just try and please take some comfort in the fact that you are not alone and you will and can get through it.

[Hidden in reply to scarsbeneathyourbeautiful]

I agree with you that many GPs are not good in dealing with mental health issues, but some are. It is worth persevering, as the GP can refer you for specialist help and counselling. Please keep posting here, as other people will listen and offer support and reassure you that you are not alone. Take care,

[Winniepooh1976 in reply to scarsbeneathyourbeautiful]

So sorry your depression is coming back I have depression and could not function without my meds. I get down days when I struggle to get out of bed. Go back to the Dr maybe take someone with you who knows what your going through. It doesn't matter if your family want you to get back with him you have your reasons and its your choice to make. You can survive but please get some support. I hope your coping OK and has the beast day you can x

[scarsbeneathyourbeautiful in reply to Winniepooh1976]

Thank you, no one knows what I’m going through at the moment, my parents know I’m ‘upset’ but they don’t know I’m feeling depression again, they wouldn’t cope with me a second time around. I’m throwing myself into work right now so whilst I’m there I’m ok. Thank you, I hope you’re doing ok X