I'm Screaming. Yet all others hear is silence.

[JuneShultz1011]

I JUST CANT. THESE DAYS ARE BECOMING WORSE. I FEEL GREAT AND HAVE IDEAS THEN IF I OVERTHINK IT 8 MINUTES LATER I BECOME DEPRESSED AGAIN. IM CALLED LAZY, DUMB ETC, I MAY BE ACADEMICALLY DUMB BUT I KNOW FOR SURE I'M PRETTY SMART, I FEEL TRAPPED IN THIS TIME, THIS VOID. I HAVE EXAMS ALL NEXT WEEK, CANT ESCAPE THEM AS I FEAR PEOPLE THINKING WEIRD OF ME, AND I CANT DO THEM BECAUSE I WILL BE RUINED. THIS WORLD FEELS JUST SO COLD. I'VE HAD COUNSELLORS, THEY LISTEN / OFFER SMALLEST PIECES OF ADVICE EVEN A TODDLER WOULD KNOW, I'M DONE WITH THAT. BEEN TOLD NO MATTER WHAT DOCTORS CAN'T HELP. NO MEDS NO NOTHING, TRIED EATING CHANGES, FELT GREAT THEN BACK DOWN, EXCERSISE AGAIN WENT BACK DOWN. EVERYONE I FEEL IS JUDGING ME, LIKE A MOTH TO A FLAME WAITING FOR ME TO BE BURNED. IT'S LIKE THEY CONSTANTLY CRITICIZE ME AND TELL ME THE WORST AND MOST NEGATIVE / UN - NEEDED THINGS EVER. APPARENTLY I CAN JUST TAKE IT. Please i just need out. how, i would never try anything like suicide, but if theres no other way out that may have to be it. Thanks x

[marigold22]

Why do you continue to write these ranting and crazy posts? We have tried to help you. It seems you prefer to be in this state of mental health. If you continue into your 20's like this you will end up being Sectioned. But - Perhaps you are a troll?

[JuneShultz1011 in reply to marigold22]

I'm hardly trolling you sick monster, You have tried to help. Nothing is being done in my personal life, Nothing is allowed to be done.

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi JuneShultz1011, I understand that you are feeling hopeless at this present time and feel that your life cannot get better, as you have tried lots of different self help therapies. I am truly asking our other members to come and chat to you and offer their advice and helpful tips and to encourage you to hang in there. Things seem dark now, but in time your life can change for the better, so please please do not give up hope of feeling better. I am sure most of our community members have travelled down this road of depression and like you, feel it is all too much to bear. But somehow they have found new ways to cope, which is why I am asking their help and advice to support you June, as you are in need of help right now. It may help you this week just to focus on your school exams and at least then, you will know that you have tried your best at your exams and you may even surprise yourself and do very well. Keep talking to us on here as we are here for you and really want to reach out to you as you are very young, to be going through so much. Speak to the Samaritans on freephone....116 123 365 days a year, they will listen to you and offer you an empathic listening ear.

Call NHS 111 if you are in need of further support or go to your nearest A/E department, or diall 999 if you are in any danger to yourself. Also keep the crisis support numbers near you to access . Stay strong June and just take each new day as it comes, maybe there is someone at school you can talk to, a teacher or a counsellor and maybe you might like to go back and see your doctor? There is hope out there and you are strong, in time I hope that you will begin to feel better......let us know how you are getting on....take it easy and mind yourself and good luck to you........