I dont know, I go through life trying to please and always seem to get a kick in the teeth for it. I can remember this time last year I was unemployed and little did I know then that life was going to be very rocky for me for at least 7 months but like the trooper I am, I came out of my dark tunnel and managed to get back on track. I now have a great job, earning really good money and finally my mental health also is "healthy", so why do I always revert to type and allow people to walk all over me and my feelings. ?? When I started my new job I met a really nice girl who decided she was going to be my friend. At first I thought it was a bit much but was glad I knew someone as my office is massive and although I know everyone now, I didnt know anyone at the begining and having a friend was good. We would go for lunch, have coffee and a laugh at my desk with the rest of our group and everything was great. I started to have my doubts when she would make arrangements with me for weekends and then let me down at the last minute. Telling me she had to cancel because she had a headache or she couldnt afford it after all?? But then I would find out that she had gone out with other people and I wasnt invited..??
I started getting fed up with her because she then started avoiding me, hardly looking at me never mind speaking to me at work but would send lots of text messages at night..??.. We got a new girl in the office a couple of months ago, who sits across from me an we get along great. We have gone for walks at lunchtime and have had the odd wee lunch as well. This other girl lives along the road from the new girl. The new girl now gives her a lift to and from work. She now comes down at lunch time and sits beside the new girl, not me, and they are now doing things like going for lunch and at Christmas they went for cocktails and I was not invited.?? They have arranged an afternoon out this Saturday for cocktails etc and again I have not been invited but the new girl said "its a shame you live so far away or you could have come as well", so I now feel as though even she is giving me the cold shoulder to go with this other one!!
I know what you are all probably thinking but it does hurt. I am trying to just concentrate on my job now. I have my own friends outside of work but I always thought it would have been good to have different friends at work. I confided in this girl and she did me too, so I just feel as though I have been "had". Sorry I know compared to a lot of people on here, this just seems petty and it seems petty to me to but I know how I feel and that is what matters!!. I know I am lucky but I just keep thinking I must have the word MUG on my forehead somewhere where I cant see it. I fell better for getting this off my chest so please dont feel you have to reply!!
Many thanks!!
Lots of Love
Theresa.. XXXXXX...