Always depressed

[curtisbrntlyjr]

I’m always feeling depressed no matter what time of the day it is. I have a failing business, bad credit, student loans, no association with my family and no friends. It seems like I just can’t catch a break with anything that I attempt to achieve. Which indeed makes me so depressed that I don’t eat, go anywhere or even talk to anyone. I was diagnosed with depression at the age of 21 but I refused to take any meds because I always felt like I was in zombie mode and that I’m 36 I’m just a awful wreck. I feel so disconnected from the world that I honestly think about just killing myself every other day because it’s not like I matter to anyone anyways. I’m always hurting on the inside just emotionally damaged. I honestly don’t know where I’m headed or what to even do at this point.

[Hidden]

Hi curtisbrntlyjr nice to meet you and welcome to the site. No wonder you are depressed with what you are going through and I think it would affect anyone adversely.

I can't make any suggestions about your business or debt but do think you need to see a doctor for treatment for your depression. Not all meds would make you feel like a zombie and you will probably find one which could help you. Have you thought about counselling as well?

I see tacking your depression as your main priority then you will find it easier to sort out your other problems. x

[curtisbrntlyjr in reply to Hidden]

Hi and thanks for the reply. I’ve started searching for counselors in my area and I’m very open to taking medication because somewhere down the line i didn’t take heed to the warning that I had received from a previous counselor telling me that unless I take medication I will always struggle with depression because I had been diagnosed with it and not to mention the suicideal thoughts that are weighing me down. I thought with me being 36 years old I would surpass this phase but apparently not. I just want to have healthy thoughts and slowly put my life back together but it is such a huge struggle.

[marigold22]

I know exactly how you feel. I feel the same as my life has been messed up so many times. I currently have nothing to show for my life. I do though find that 5-HTP natural supplements help my mood. naturesbest.co.uk/5-htp-tab...

Completely natural and they do lift my mood to allow me to make some kind of plan for the future. Good luck.

[curtisbrntlyjr in reply to marigold22]

Hi marigold22 thanks for the reply and I will definitely give those supplements a try and let you know how things turn out.

[marigold22 in reply to curtisbrntlyjr]

Thanks for replying. I hope they help you.