I'm sick of trying. My driving instructor cancelled on me, this is my 3rd/4th instructor now that I've tried. Why do I have the worst luck, it's like the world is saying not to do it. Don't have independence. Don't feel worthy or proud of yourself, just feel worthless and useless. Would it really matter if I wasn't here. I don't enjoy anything anymore, I'm constantly down and that's not fair on my boyfriend who is possibly way too good for me and deserves someone who is happier in themselves and less needy. I'm my happiest when I'm with him, so constantly want to see him but he told me the other day that he was neglecting other important things in his life I.e music and I feel like that is my fault. I want to be his priority, and his says I am but because I so want for his attention, on my down days, it doesn't feel ever enough. Like when I'm struggling I want him to call me and tel me he loves me or rush to my house and check I'm okay. Surprise me with flowers or something, just to brighten my day. Maybe I watched too many romcoms growing up. I just want to feel loved and worthy. I'm all over the place.