Lonely and very sad.

[luckyio]

Hi I wouldn't know where to start, my 2 younger children are not living with me for the last 5 weeks.... I was too honest about my difficulties in looking after them, result....they live "temporarily" with their fathers.

My life was difficult enough and now its unbearable, either I want to die or pack all my things and disappear, then I think about my children and try to carry on.....The important conference -meeting with social services and police is today at 130 pm where things and future for my 2 children will be decided etc......

I don't know for how long I can bear all this pain, tears,sadness and empty life.

Can anyone advise me ?????? Please

[quieturban]

I pray that you get through with everything. You are not alone remember that. I am here to talk and if I can be of assistance. Hugs.

[Shanpa69]

Hi Luckyio

I understand your pain of feeling low and overwhelmed and then being honest to professional in order to get some help ...

I was very close to losing my daughter and there was not the option of her staying with her father she would have gone into care.

Please try and be strong and achieve what social service ask you to do as they are a service which is design to safe guard children. I understand about emotional pain as l a diagnosis of borderline personality disorder anxiety and depression post traumatic stress disorder and fibromyalgia. At times l feel life is not worht carrying on but like you said you think of your children and the decision has to be different

I want to say to you don't beat yourself up take each second each minute each hour at a time things will feel hard sometimes but try and get services to give you the right help lm still fighting not for myself but for my daughter so she can have a different childhood from me.

Sorry for the long response your pain stood out as similar to my own and l wanted to say lm thinking of you take care

[luckyio in reply to Shanpa69]

Thank you x

[luckyio in reply to Shanpa69]

Thanks for your reply. X

[Shanpa69]

Your welcome if you ever need to talk lm here please take care

[wainwright73]

All I can say is hang in there and try and fix your difficulties.. my ex gf was in a very similar position, she went through hell as much as I tried to help her, but eventually, she got herself back to who she was/is and is now an amazing mother, back with all 3 of her children and doing some amazing things in the community and helping others who are going through similar struggles, and not very often can you be so proud of an ex gf!

[mysmugcat in reply to wainwright73]

Awesome wainwright73

[mysmugcat]

Hello sorry to hear this. Are you allowed to take anyone with you to this meeting?

[luckyio in reply to mysmugcat]

Meeting was yesterday.

My 2 children are allowedto stay with their father not me....until I get better with my mental health. X

Thanks for your contact

[mysmugcat in reply to luckyio]

Sorry I missed that. How do you feel about this? luckyio

[luckyio in reply to mysmugcat]

I feel sad but a bit relieved as I couldn't cope

[tofler]

Hi, I'm really sorry to hear about your situation but it sounds like your children might be able to live with you again in future when your mental health improves? Can you still have some regular face to face contact with your children whilst they're living with their father? I hope you're getting some useful help and support with your mental health? Sorry about me asking so many questions!