Window to my whirlwind mind

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Hey everyone, I wrote this last night; it's only a first draft so still needs work but I thought it would be quite fitting to share on here and who knows I might even catch a couple of people that can relate.

The up and the down

The angel and the devil

Will I never know a life where the two just level?

Im a human catapult

launched from one extreme to extreme

Soaring high in the sky with that oh so unbreakable smile or

Collapsed on hells floor

Almost aching to bolt through the escape door

My treasure chest of demons

Strain against the lock

Triggered by some small action; seemingly harmless

Has the lock jet into the distance

Leaving every eerily ugly face unleashed

Free to release those ear piercingly screech like screams

They're noise is overbearing

They're snatching my senses

They're stealing my sanity

My vision blurs, the blackness has crept up from behind

Sliming around the corners of my mind before entirely consuming it

Reality hazes with some sort of surreal tint

I stumble back and fall down my very own

alice in wonderland hole

Half way down I try to breathe

The air has played its favourite magic trick

Of abandoning me

My lungs feel crushed; I'm choking

I cannot afford this decline; I'm crying out

I'm calling

Please; somebody: stop me from falling

Faces appear at the edge where I lost my footing

For a moment I dare let myself hope; of salvation and a helping hand home

Then I see their guns, arrows and bombs

Fired with precision like my hearts a bullseye target

It's not the tool of the bullets that push me further into my plummet

It's the heartbreaking hatred behind it

I hit the bottom and shatter

Like glass tossed from a frightening height

Broken, bruised, bleeding

I half open one eye

My gaze is greeted with loosing numbers on a set of dice.