I graduated from university with a Bachelor of Digital Media (basically every semester introduced us to a different Adobe software). It was very artsy from the knowledge I got...
I did two internships in graphic design, I struggled in both because my knowledge in graphic design alone was lacking. I just couldn't get my head around the things they were doing because it was bascially changing facebook banners for people, or the intership got angry with me because I couldn't find free stock photos where they didn't have to pay anything.
I decided to just get any job, so I work as a cashier now, and it was great at the start, but lately with the change of management, overall 5 people left and 6 got fired I was put in charge to supervise, not much extra money, it's stressful as the new kids are pretty stuck-up and there was one person who just hates me and reported me for not doing a good-enough job.
My parents passed away about two years ago, my mum in 2014 and my dad in 2015, both from cancer, so they gave me an inheritance and I'm desperatly trying to save money to buy a house. However, even friends of ours saved like 950,000 and get barely a minimum in auctions because houses are so expensive here.
We have a great apartment, but I'm hating my job, my bf changed jobs because his other job he was working 80 hours a week (as a chef) and actually fainted on the stairs so I'm happy he has a different one, but they gave him empty promises so now he doesn't make much money.
I'm basically waiting in a few months time, my bf's job told him he would have the opportunity, so I really can't quit, but I feel like crying now.
I work so hard, I feel like wanting to take my life, having no hope in the future to even buy a house until I'm maybe 60, my career sucks and just my work is draining me so much. I just want it all to end
I really try to put my art out there, I've been working on a graphic novel but my bf says I shouldn't invest myself into it to make a living out of, so now I don't even believe I have any hope anymore.
I just don't know how to cope, it's such a difficult time right now, and I feel jaded and unexcited about living.