Hi, I'm finding everyday a struggle. I've 2 small children and an older one. I'm constantly tired, I make a list of things to do but never complete it as I need to lay down as exhausted. I don't want to socialise with people as I feel like I've nothing to say that's important, I let people down as I get all panicky when it's time to go out. I have no one I can talk to who understands, if I suggest anything to do with feeling low, I get responses like oh cheer up, I've felt like that it will be ok tomorrow. I feel people are fed up looking at my miserable face. My youngest two go to their dads every weekend but I then feel bad as it's time when other families do things and are enjoying themselves and I'm not, yet when my little ones are here I struggle to cope. I hate being on my own but I'm fat and no confidence. I actually don't want to be in anyone's company because I'm so miserable. I'm on so many anti depressants and anxiety tablets. I've tried cbt but it only helped for the 6 weeks I was doing it. I'm under a psychiatrist who literally only reviews me and my tablets and tells me to go back in 6 months.
I just don't feel happy and feel so jealous of people that are happy and sociable and enjoying life. Ive not long taken up a voluntary job in a charity shop 3 days a week which I do enjoy but I've also got a problem of hoarding. It's just one thing after another. Will I ever get out of this situation? It's a beautiful day and I'm laying on my bed exhausted, and I've already had a sleep today. Am I the only one feeling like this? Who can I talk to? Who will not judge me but be my friend? How can I cope with life? Why am I so tired ?