Desperate

[Forester8]

I need help. Want to be normal again. It has been too long since I felt in charge of my life. Think of hurting myself daily and I know it's wrong

[Kieron85]

Morning Forrester,

How are this morning my friend? Why not just tell us about yourself and then go forward from there. Either reply or even message me but please do speak to me or someone. I've had this feeling before and acted on it. So I know where your at mind wise. First post or reply I've wrote but hope it's the most useful.

[Forester8 in reply to Kieron85]

Hi I m doing ok this morning. Thank u for your kind message.havent acted on my scary moments yet and hope I never will but can't stop this awful feelings when they creep up on me. It feels good thought that there r people out there like u that r willing to help so thank u.

M

[Kieron85 in reply to Forester8]

Just talking is enough some times and nice to help if I can. Stay in touch and stay safe

[20Voices]

Hi,

I know that feeling. I had days where i just didn't want to wake up. I just wanted to sleep and sleep, because I was too numb and tired to do anything.

Hurting yourself is not good. I have been there and done it. It doesn't help.

What is normal anyway, we are all unique individuals and we all deserve to feel happy and loved.

As Kidger85 has said, talking can help. Remember you the tough days you have people you can call and talk to if you feel that you are at that stage you are going to hurt yourself. I am not scared to admit on here that I have called Samaritans in the middle of the night when I was in so much pain I was considering hurting myself. There are other charities as well that offer you that support. It helped me that night just to talk and yes I did cry.

There is so much help available today, please find what is available in your area and use it. Don't be scared, I still feel embarrassed at times when I see my GP but I am lucky to have found an understanding GP and he gets that I feel embarrassed about bothering him and other people with my problems. He is good at reminding me that a lot of help organisations are there for people who find it hard to reach out and they are there to help so to use them.

I know it's hard when your head is all full of mush to understand how you are feeling yourself never mind talk to someone else about it.

You've taken the first step by joining this forum. If you don't feel like sharing on the forum, why not search for how you are feeling and just read the posts. They may help you understand things a little better.

Like Kidger85, I'd be happy if you want to personally message me.

Right now I'm going through ups and downs, just had my medication changed to help with the down and I am working on other techniques to help for when I can eventually come off my meds, which is my goal. My aim is to be stronger and better than I was before I became ill.

I am also on the Action for Happiness community so that I can find posts to make me smile when I need them.

You can do this, one day at a time and don't be afraid to ask.

Take care and welcome, I hope you get as much help as I did when I first joined this community.

[Forester8 in reply to 20Voices]

Thank you kindly for your message. I m overwhelmedwith how nice everyone has been on here. I just need to remember that I m not alone and there is help when we needed. M

[20Voices in reply to Forester8]

Yes, you are not alone and please ask. I was afraid to ask for help to start with because I was embarrassed, but I see now that I am in a far better place because I asked questions on here. I also read posts that helped me see that I was not the only one suffering.

Just remember the charities Samaritans and Breathing Space are there if you need to speak to someone urgently and also check out the resources on The Shaw Mind Foundation website. They are really helpful.

Take care, I am off to do one of my deep breathing exercises as I've just had my anxiety levels raised by giving a statement to a lawyer for my divorce and having to relive some bad memories. I know I will be fine once I have done my exercise, put on some music and looked at my vision board to focus on my future goals and not the past.

[Forester8 in reply to 20Voices]

I am sorry about your divorce and what you are going thru dear. I been thru it and it isn't pleasant. After everyone's help and response on here I must say today is a very good day. It feels like i gained friends. I do have lots of support of my close friends but they haven't been through depression and I feel like I m imposing and dumping bad energy. I cannot thank u enough for your messages and support.

Wishing u a wonderful day.

Mx