Could anyone tell me if suicide is a cowards way out

[Heartbroken2127]

Hi I've been taking drugs for a while (cocaine) and I thought I had it under control but a didn't and nearly overdosed this wkend , I've realised now how bad it's been , but I've hurt the love of my life so much with my lies and the stupid things about done that a can't take it anymore , now she thinks am cheating because a signed up to a prostature site when a was out of it , a never intended to do anything was just totally out of it and feeling horny and felt good just imagining , but now she thinks am a cheating druggy and my heart feels like it's going to explode with hurt , av never loved or ever will love someone like her , she is my whole world and more , but am starting to think she would be better of without me as a feel ashamed and dirty , am considering just ending my life , a don't want to hurt her anymore and a know deep in my heart she deserves so much more out of life , a don't want to die but a can't take the hurt anymore and a just want it to stop , ano it's selfish but a honestly think in time she will be ok and find someone to make her happy

[Hidden]

Tried it in the past and suffered the treatments to bring me back.

You need to consider those who you will leave on this rock in space, it is those people who need the courage to be able to get over the loss you will subject their lives to. I cannot say it is a cowards way out, I do not know your reasons other than above. All I can say you need to be a very brave person, a person who considers others and any of those who really love you.

Suicide is a selfish attitude I feel now, my life is full of others distrust that I may try again even though they know I will now prefer to live and fight my corner. We make our own challenges in life and those challenges help us all move on and follow a positive life of choices and expectations.

In my case I took an overdose of Opiates and prescribed medications, you do not really want to go there believe me !!!!!!

Go back to your GP and arrange help, we are around here for you to talk to.

Look for interests and ways of helping those around you. To be honest the recovery of drug overdose can be painful and life changing.

BOB

[Heartbroken2127 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks for the kind words bob , a don't know what's going on in my head at the minute, think a need a few days to clear my head as the depression and anxiety are really bad and after the wkend , a hope a feel diff tomorow and this is just a cry for help as a don't want to hurt anyone anyone , thanks again bob

[sweetiepye]

Hello. You must remember that it was you who got yourself into this mess, and you who must get yourself out. Do you think your girlfriend believes everything you tell her?I rather doubt it. People who use drugs usually fool themselves more than others. You should try to accept responsibility for yourself and stop causing pain to others. See a Doctor and get into therapy. That would be the truly courageous thing to do. It will be hard work, but you will get your life back. Pam

[scole7]

Go to get some help with your girlfriend and she will hopefully try to understand that your obviously leaning onot the drugs to get by. I have felt the same as you and just as low it's my children that would have to live with the conequences and yes that would be selfish of me. I cold not do it to them. Even when I think I have nobody and pole are beer without me I can't because of the hurt I would cause. I would be away from my troubles but they could never get rid of the pain and guilt if I did. Think of your girlfriend if she means so much don't mess her life up to relieve your problems they will get better.

[Gambit62]

may be this post will help a little

personally not sure that suicide is selfish - more a sign that you are really unwell and not coping. horrible for those that are left behind.

healthunlocked.com/couchtob...

[aaustinintexas]

it's the drugs that's taking u out.thats what they do ur not using the coke it's using u if you truly love someone then u still have enough heart to reach out and get help wanting to end it doesn't mean u die sweetie it means your at your bottom u don't have to go any lower the drugs have control u can take it back its doable I promise I did it years ago I'm going through things now but to turn back to that he'll or use doesn't even cross my mind but I know exactly were u r I went through numerous programs but didn't clean up until I was at the lowest point and dope was the cause of all of it I will tell u it took 6 months of not using for the fog to lift ,for me to even smell a flower or laugh from my heart I truly believe you in hell but unlike the choice u wouldn't have if u took your own life u can get out of it now Don't u think you have had enough Hell,you can pull up u must get clean get help.go cold Turkey whatever it takes don't give the damn devil anymore it's your life take it back your girl didn't fall in love with this person that does things when he is high u can earn her trust back when u can trust yourself u have to forgive that demon that has messed up everything and then let him go kick him to the curve and come back as the man u can be clean and one day will turn into 2 days people will start to trust u again just don't use again ...